There's Always Light in the Darkness

I Always Had That Feeling

I always had that feeling
About you
Deep,
Deep down,
In the bottom
Of my gut
Starting when
She brought you home.

Before you came
Into our lives,
It was perfect,
Happy and fun filled.
You had to go and ruin
That for us.

So many things
Happened behind
Closed doors.
Few were for the good,
But most were
For the worst.

You corrupted
My mother.
You changed
Her ways.
She'll never,
Ever be the way
She was before
She met you.
You took her
From me.

I used to play
Your stupid games.
They hurt me,
But they pleased you.
Nobody knew about
The sick and wicked things I had to do.
I never said anything
Or fought your games,
To save the rest
From you.

You always fought
With my mother.
Forcing me and my sister
To listen to every word.
And every time,
Your words were meaner,
Your voice was louder. . .
It got harder and
Even harder
To listen to.
It scared me and my sister,
Left us shaking,
Crying.

I thought about
Running away.
I started to plan and pack.
I didn't know
Where I would go.
All I knew
Was you wouldn't be there,
So I wouldn't have
To play your games anymore.

The only reason
I never left
Was because of
My sister.
And what was left
Of my mother.
She was all I had.
I couldn't leave
My little sister.
She was my everything,
I took care of her. . .
She looked up to me.

And when you saw me
As a threat,
You would try to
Get rid of me.
You would
Ground me
To my room,
For weeks at a time.
You excluded me
From everything
That you did.
You thought I would
Go away.

You said things
That you should
Never say
(And did things that
You should never do).
At least you
Didn't say
Or do these things
To my sister.

You guys were at it,
It had gotten bad.
So bad that
My mother was going
To leave your
Sorry derrère.

She told us to
Get our shoes on,
Go downstairs,
And sit on the couch.
We sat there while
You yelled at each other.
We never left
That night
Only because
She was afraid
To leave you.

But then,
Enough was enough.
We packed
Our stuff up and left.
She was rushing around
Afraid that you
Would come back
At anytime.
We never went back,
I never had any
Contact with you.

The Thanksgiving
After we left,
She asked me
About you.
She was ready to know.
I had to tell her,
Even though it
Had been
Our little secret.
I couldn't
Lie to her.

Shortly afterwards,
I went and
Told a lady about
All of your sick and
Wicked games.
About everything
That had happened.
What you did
To me,
Said to me.
Had me do,
Beginning to
End.

I have to
Testify against
You soon.
This time,
I hope you
Get locked up
For life.
No parole,
No nothing.

I was the last,
Not the only one,
I was the last
Girl you would
Ever be able to
Play your games with.
You will never be
Able to hurt a
Young,
Innocent girl
Ever again.