I let out a soft barley hearable moan. But of course he heard it which boosted his ego by a million. I push him away for a second and look into his eyes.
"Emmett?"
"mmm?"
"I ------ I can't im sorry"
"Dont feel bad, I was not expecting you to be ready for sex and even if you were I wouldn't let your first time be so plain and un memorable"
How did i get so lucky? Most guy now, if you dont give them what they want... sex, they drop you like your hot and run as far away as they can, finding an actual gentelmen is something to be tressured. Someone that will respect you for who you are. Some one who is not afraid to say how they feel. Someone who is not embaraced to shout the name Jesus. Someone who will shake your Daddys hand.
I come out of my daze and stare into Emmett's eyes and cant help but smile.
He knows that I want to save myself for marriage. Its something I believe and always will. I am a Christian and I'm not afraid to say that. And if a boy cant except that and wait (If he sees any sort of future with me) then he can leave and find some other girl to help him out.
I come out of my thoughts when my stomach rumbles. "Dang. Imma go get some food, do you want anything?" I ask as I stand in the doorway to my room.
"Mmmm how bout some.... Cereal?"
"babe its like 3pm...."
"Yep... and?"
"Ugh fine loser one bowl of Cereal coming right up" I push myself up off the door frame and walk down the hallway to the stairs, and of course me being me I trip down the stairs and land at the bottom... "Oww" I say as I start laughing.
"ALEXIS! Are you okay?!" I hear Emmett shout
"Yeah Yeah all good"
I get up off the floor and make my way to the kitchen. I walk into the pantry and grab some cereal and put it on the counter as I go to the fridge to get some milk. I grab a bowl and then pour Emmett some cereal. I grab a banana and walk back upstairs, being careful not to trip again.
I walk into my room to find Emmett asleep. I walk over to him and think for a minute. 1. 2. 3. JUMP!
"ALEXIS!! what was that for?"
"I brought you food you idjit" I say with a goofy smile.
"Awe thanks!"
"No problemo"
"Okay well imma watch TV now so scooch" I say as I jump into my bed and grab the remote. I turn on the TV and open up Netflix. I look around for what to watch and finally decide on Greys Anatomy. Because like why anything else? Greys is Bae. Don't fight me on this.
I look over to see Emmett sleeping. Again. ughh.
Soon enough I fall asleep as well.
Do you know that feeling when your having a dream and you know its not real but it feels so real? Well that's what happened after I fell asleep.
I have a dream that I'm the person killing my parents. All the fear and regret piles up inside of me. And no matter how hard I try I cannot wake myself up.
Thank Yall for reading this chapter of Regret. I'm sorry I haven't been updating for a while, I've been really busy with school and I've been really sick:(
