Things That Bug Me

I had a dream that I was Raped

I feel like I need to express this or I will never get over it nor forget it. I don't know why I had this dream but it may have something to do with the Melatonin I took that night. And it probably didn't help that my room was balls ass cold. But here is the dream.

So the dream shook me but also was very weird at the same time. He caught me with this weird gum rope stuff? Idk how to describe it other than it was stretchy, faded pink, and was chewable like bubblegum. I tried to fight and escape him and so did my mom, she was unsuccessful, but I had gotten away a couple of times; the last time he caught me though I remember him putting my in his truck but nothing after that. Next thing I know I'm running down the street knowing he had gone somewhere and snuck out of the house I must been there for a long time for him to trust me alone without everything locked up. I was looking for the street corner so I could look at the street names and call the cops. When I got to the street corner I noticed the names were oddly patriotic the street names were Pledge and Justice? I believe so anyways, so I head back over to the house and that's when I take in my attire. He has dressed me in a pink kimono that is paper like and only reaches my knees which I thought was very strange. Suddenly I'm back at the house and I'm listening to one of the neighbors telling him that they saw me running and sneaking around outside. He thanks her and comes over to me and I cower down he looks over at me and I can tell you how he looks his face was kind of blurry but I am pretty sure he had features that resembled Don Knotts, he didn't look exactly like him but that's the best way I can describe him, he stood at about 5'7" and had a very soft voice, not soft as in quiet but soft as in calming, one that sounded very normal but in a creepy way. Anyways, he looked at me and pulled off his belt I started to sob and shake my head and walk backwards while covering my bottom, "please don't hurt me," I had sobbed out. His face softened and he came towards me and gently stricken my face while catching a tear and told me that he would never hurt me and then told me to go to my room and as I was walking past he whipped me with the belt really hard.

More happened after that but I'm not really sure as to what because everything was foggy as I was trying to wake myself and keep myself awake, even though my dream did not show him rapping me the feeling was there because I had felt violated severely throughout the whole dream.