I'm still looking for a man who will love me unconditionally. I thought I had found one, Tyler. We dated for three years, but when I began to grow as a person, he held me down and wanted me to stay the way I was in high school. I had outgrown high school Ali. I wanted to be the real me. I remember he would always get jealous when I went out to drink. It's college, come on man. Did you just expect me to sit around in my dorm room all weekend? He had no reason to not trust me, I have no history of cheating. But, apparently alcohol makes people cheat, even the faithful ones. It really hurt me to know that he thought so lowly of me. No, I'm not going to cheat on you, I have no desire to. Alcohol won't change that. He was also a little concerned that my best friend is a straight guy. That was a little more understandable at first. I made every effort to allow him to see us interact and even become friends with him, but it wasn't enough. Not to mention, my best friend has a girlfriend. He almost broke up with me for having Adam spend the night in my room (in separate beds and everything) without asking him if it was okay.
A man that loves me unconditionally will trust me. A man that loves me unconditionally will be okay with me drinking if I want to. A man that loves me unconditionally will see that Adam (my best friend) and I are just friends and that we need each other. The next guy that I commit myself to will have to think of me as more than some girl that throws herself at other guys when she gets drunk. He will have to see me as someone who is smart and loving, because I am both of those things. He will at least try to be interested in the things that I'm interested in. He will remember my birthday, he will get me flowers on Valentine's Day, he will always be thinking of me because he loves every part of me. I will not settle for anyone less. I owe it to myself.
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Who Even Am I Anyway? - A Collection of Journal Entries by alibuzzbee
Non-FictionI am a junior in college. I just broke up with my boyfriend of three years. I've spent most of my college career focused on my relationship and our future together instead of experiencing things and growing as a person. I spent the fall semester mis...
