Why Me?(Larry Stylinson)

Chapter 5

When I woke up I felt strong arms holding me close. I squeezed my eyes shut, the memories of the night before coming to me. I felt Louis tighten his grip on me, meaning he was awake.  

"Morning Haz." Louis whispered in my hair, giving a gentle kiss to my temple. I decided to go along with it, maybe he would forget about the previous night. "Morning." I mumbled into his chest. He pulled me closer if that was even possible. "We should talk about last night, H." Louis whispered. I sat up quickly and looked at him, tears in my eyes. 

"I-i ddon't want to talk about it." He sat up too and gave me a look. "We need to, Haz. I need to explain why I left and stopped talking to you."

I looked at my hands. "I know why," I whispered, "It was my fault. I'm not worth it." He moved infront of me, and cupped my face, bringing my head up to look at him. His eyes were filled with tears and I knew mine were too.

"Oh no, Haz, babe, don't think like that. It wasn't anything like that." I couldn't get over the fact that he called me babe. "Why would you think that?" He asked me. I looked at him, "It would ruin everything even more so than now." I told him.

"What is it?"

"I-i love you, Lou. L-like r-really l-llove." I stuttered. His tearful eyes got wide, and I knew I just screwed up. I went to spew out apologies when he cut me off. 

"Oh god, Haz, I love you too." I went to say something when he stopped me, "Shh. Let me explain. I knew I had loved you, and I foolishly let it slip. They set me up with Eleanour. When you told me you were gay, I wanted to be there for you, I really did. But everything just happened so fast, and I had to stay away or I knew I'd do something I would regret. I already have though, I left you." I had tears streaming down my face as I looked at him. 

"I-it was so hard, Lou. I i thought you hated me." I sobbed. He pulled me into him and said soothing words. "I could never hate you, baby." He whispered in my ear. "I love you so much." 

I nodded, I didn't know if I truly believed him. "I want you to stop cutting, baby." 

"I-i can't promise anything, Lou." I whimpered. "Then at least promise me you'll come to me."

"I promise." I told him. It got silent for a little bit as my sobs died down. "Do you wanna be my boyfriend, Haz?" Louis asked me. "Yeah," I looked up at him, " But what about management and El?" He shrugged. "Management can suck my dick. El is the one that encouraged me to come talk to you," I looked up confused, I thought she was out? "I lied." I nodded. "All she is, is a good friend who's being paid to pretend to be my girlfriend. We'll be okay." 

"Okay." I told him. I guess everything would be okay. Management we could deal with. I'd sure hear a hear full if they found out though. 

"Do we have anything planned today?" I thought about it for a second.

"Not that I know of, but the boys might come over later to check on me." Louis gave me a look, "Why?" 

I shrugged. "I guess they're just worried. You know with my past of cutting and stuff."

"Well, I guess they were right. huh?" I laughed, "Yeah, I guess so." Then I paused, "We're not going to tell them are we? Or are you going to tell them about my cutting?" I asked.

"We'll tell them about us when you're ready, babe. And I won't tell them unless it gets worse babe." I nodded and looked up at him as I heard my front door slam open.

"Harry! You're life just got better!" Was heard from Niall and a sound of Liam hitting him atop the head, "Shut up Niall, he might still be sleeping!" I groaned as I heard Zayn laugh and realized they were all in my house. 

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