I layed on thd bathroom....feeling life less, I dont know what to do anymore....I cant take the pain. im sick and tired of it. I only have one person who cares for me. I got up and looked at myself in the mirror and ran the water from the sink. my eyes were bloody red and tear fell down. I grabbed a blade from the soap dish where Ieft them last time. I put on my wrist, to the point where it was indenting into my skin. before I started I sat on the floor and took in a breath, I felt the blade rip through my skin and blood started to drip. I felt the sting and some how it relaxed me. the pain from the cut took the thought of the pain in my heart to dissappear. thats just one more scar added to my collection..... I heard someone walk into my room, but I couldnt see who because my bathroom door was closed, "sam?...samtha?...are you here?.." I knew who that was...it was niall. wait. Its. niall. HES BACK FROM THE TOUR! WAIT. he can't see my like this! I quickly go to the running sink and quickly put my hand under the water. "AHHHH OH MY GOD!!" I shut the sink off and slide down the wall on the side of me. I was in soo much more pain. my eye brows scrunched together and my jaw tighted. I must have turned the nobb the wrong way and it was on hot. and since it has been running for a while it was buring. niall rushed in and quick got on his knees "babe whats wrong!....oh my god.." he shuffled through the drawers to find somthing. he got a hand towel and ran it under cold water and formed it into a little ball. he placed it on my cut and held me in my arms trying to confort me. "shh..sshh..hey im home now...dont worry im here...I wont leave you I promise.." he said rocking us back and forth. with my head on his chest.I felt safe again In his arms. ive been going crazy so long without him. niall knows what I do but while he was on tour I promised him I wouldn't do it no longer. this is the first time ive done it since and its almost been a year. he got me up from the floor and walked me over to my bed. he put me undermy covers and layed right next to me holding me tightly close to him. "ive missed you.." I say in a whisper with my voice soo shakey. he kissed my head and I quickly fell asleep.
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