Butterflies In My Stomach

v.a.

So the next day I saw her at school and I came up to her to give her a kiss and a hug and I whispered beside her ear and told her, I love you so much too, you make so happy and when your not around me I miss your presence, I hope that we never lose each other because your the only thing that is good that has come to my life as I said with a nervous voice. She looked up at me, amazed. So I said "why do you have that look?" she said because nobody has ever told me this before, your the only person that is honest with me when you tell me how you feel about me. And I'm glad you feel this way because I don't want you ever leaving me either, you were meant for me baby. The whole day I was thinking and thinking, until my head started to hurt so that day  when I got home I took a nap and I had a dream about my girlfriend. And it was about us breaking up because we just didn't feel the same towards each other no more. But when I woke up I was frightened, I thought it was real.  I started to cry because would if it does  happen,would if everything we said to each other won't mean anything anymore and will be just strangers that had a history together. But then here I go again , exaggerating over this dream. So I just got my stuff ready for school tomorrow and went back to sleep and the next day, I got up extra early just to do my makeup and look pretty for my lover. But it kind of took forever trying to find what I wanted to wear. Sometimes I'll try on some clothes and I wouldn't like how it went on me, so I would try on so many clothes that I started to get frustrated with myself and when I got frustrated, I would start to cry. And then my makeup would be everywhere on my face. But since I took it easy, I just threw on a dress and wore some boots. After I was done getting ready I grabbed my bag and my notebook, I had to make sure I had everything I needed for today, so I looked around my room just in case I wasn't missing anything. I closed my door to my room and went downstairs. Said bye to my dad and my grandma. And they all said bye in a excited tone. I thought to myself hmm I wonder what made them in that mood, because most of the time their always cranky, it's like they hate being alive or something I don't know. But today it seemed like it was going to be a good day. So I put my bag on top of my shoulder and my notebook inside. I took off towards the door feeling very confident and very happy. As I was closing the door to my house I realized that I forgot my earphones so I had to run all the way up stairs just to get my earphones so I could listen to my favorite band as I'm walking to school. I don't what the heck was going on with me, I'm really forgetful, like a lot. Now I finally got everything. I put my earphones inside my hear and I look up  Arctic monkeys. I let the playlist play and one of my favorite songs came on by them, I was singing and I didn't notice I was singing out loud and some girl was walking behind me. I looked back and I was like "omg" inside my head I was saying I feel stupid now. But I finally got to school and I saw my lover sitting down waiting for me. She looked happy to me see. And I was happy to see her too! She said hey good morning and I leaned to give her a kiss on her cheek. But in my mind something didn't feel right there. Usually she would give me a kiss back. And say I love you. But I guess not. So I asked her what was wrong and she said nothing. I started to realize she's pushing me away. I mean that's how it felt. So I just said okay well I got to go. So I got up and she didn't even say goodbye or anything. You had no idea how that made me feel. it felt like she was annoyed by me. And didn't care anymore about this relationship. But who knows. So I just acted like everything was okay, even though it was bothering me. I wanted to ask how she still felt about me.