I sat up in bed & watched him as he put his pants on. "I'm tired as shit" I said aloud as I rubbed my eyes. "I bet you are" he said smirking at me as he buckled his belt. I didn't say another word as I stared at him as he continued to get dressed.
My side nigga had been just that for a long time. & it always worked because we always had tht level of respect for one another. & by respect I mean to stay in our lanes. & by staying in our lanes we vowed to NVR catch feelings. We made a vow that no matter what, feelings would nvr be involved in what we had going on. But doesn't tha saying go you can't help who you fall for? I used tha term side nigga so loosely because of tha simple fact that he was by my side whenever I needed him to be. Bad break up? He was there. I needed advice from a male point of view? He was there. He kept it real with me. We had a bond. We could talk about absolutely anything. My situationship with him was tha only reason why I felt like a bond was better than a title. Cus I really loved tha bond tht we had. I could text him or talk to him about my niggas, or nigga for that matter. Anything that was bothering me. & he gave me legit male advice. & vice versa.
Tha sex chemistry between us was on another level. Like enough to make you fall in love, clearly. He was one of them niggas that just knew what to do & how to do it without you hvn to tell him. Tht knew ya body inside & out with ease. We fucked so much. A few times a week. Consistently. My body was so accustomed to him it didn't yearn for anybody else. My own boyfriend didn't have tha affect he had on me. He was walking towards my bedroom door & I thought it would be like normal routine. But he fooled tf outta me.
"We gotta fall back from each other yo" tha shit was so sudden it caught me off guard. & at first I thought it was a joke, so I laughed. “What yo?” I said as I sat up right in bed this time. It was dark so I could only see his face from tha light of tha tv. “We gotta fall back from each other dawg”. I tried to process his words but I couldn't. Like the fuck he mean “we gotta fall back from each other”. The shit didn't make sense to me. “Where that come from Amir?” I asked him as I got outta bed & began to put my clothes on. I walked over to tha light & cut it on so I could be able to fully see his facial expression. “It came from me where else would it come from?” “Rd but why?!” I said raising my voice getting irritated. “Like how you come here, fuck me all crazy & then just think you can say some shit like that to me after what we just found out!? You cant be serious right now!” I said to him as I turned my head away tryna hide tha tears that were forming in my eyes. Tears because I was mad, confused & more hurt than anything. “Idk its just like I-” we both stopped in our tracks as we heard a door downstairs close. “Oh shit, that's my boyfriend!” I said as I began to panic. “I thought you said that nigga was doing a double you on some dumb shit!” he snapped at me. “That's what he told me!” I said tryna figure out where he could go before my boyfriend came up tha steps. He couldn't go in tha closet, or under the bed so I did the next logical thing. In the 4 years we had been creeping, I had never gotten caught & I wasn't about to. That & my boyfriend would've killed the both of us with no remorse if he would've caught us. “Go out tha window!” I said as I pushed him towards it. “What?! You tripping if you think I'm bouta be stuck on ya fucking roof!” Hearing my boyfriends footsteps coming up the steps he realized he had no choice. “I'm really fucking done now” he said climbing onto my roof. I didn't have time to fake sleep so I sat on tha edge of tha bed as if I had just woke up. “Hey babe what you doing here I thought you was doing a double” I said to him as I pretended to rub my eyes like I had just woke up. “Yeah I was but they didn't need me anymore. I was gon call you but I knew you was sleep. You just waking back up?” he asked me as he began to undress. “Why you got tha window open its freezing in here” he said & before I could answer he walked to the window & my heart dropped. Tha last thing I wanted was for him to see Amir anywhere on our roof. I forsure knew I was living in my last seconds on earth. Idk what spiderman shit Amir did but my boyfriend looked out tha window before closing it & walking to our bathroom to take a shower. I breathed a sigh of relief as I took my clothes off to join him. Standing in tha bathroom door I almost fainted as he stood there smiling at me. “Im gonna be a dad?” he said coming over to me holding tha pregnancy test he had found on tha sink & kissing me. I burst into tears..
