Yeah....She's my stepmother (TAENY)

God.... I'm in love with her!

I got home after a long day of classes. Tiffany and I didn't talk after the incident on the roof of the university and actually I preferred it that way. As much as it hurt me not being around her, I knew that if I did it would be much worse. It had been over a month and although Tiffany sought my gaze in class and at home, I didn't correspond it, I had to be strong.

I began to spend more time with Janhae, I had felt terrible to forget her and when she couldn't come to Korea, we called each other to say goodbye at night. Our relationship was like it had been before, stable, everything was on track, but it didn't feel the same. Something weird was that I didn't feel completely happy and didn't know why.

Today was Friday, the worst day of the week because Tiffany stayed at our home for the weekend with my father, I knew they had to be out there, so I did n't bother to greet them and went straight to my room up stairs.

I threw my bag to the ground and closed my eyes throwing myself to the bed. I sighed. ...I was tired and didn't really know if it was for the extensive classes or the mental damage that Tiffany had caused me. I rubbed my temples and forced myself to breathe slowly.

"Taeyeon-ah..." I heard Tiffany's voice outside my room, along with her polite knocks on the door asking permission to enter.

"Go away, I'm tired" I growled without opening my eyes.

Clearly she ignored me, and it was expected because she always did what she wanted to. She opened the door and entered, locking the room. It wasn't a good sign.

"Too bad you're exhausted, I thought we could have had some fun."

I opened my eyes and frowned, I wanted her to see me really angry for everything she had done to me, but it didn't seem to affect her.

"Don't you dare, Tiffany" I warned.

Worst of all, is that my heart had started to beat wildly, and my body had already begun to react before anything happened. I hated this, I hated feeling so weak and in need of a person who didn't do anything but stress me. Tiffany knew it, She knew it too well but I didn't want it, and smiling at my reaction, ignored my warning, came to me and lay down on top of me.

My body froze up when I feel her on top of me and I cursed myself.

"You think badly of my TaeTae, I don't want to have sex with you" she said, leaning on my chest and my hand automatically caressed her hair "I just want to rest just like you, and I want to finish this."

"Finish what?" I asked confused.

"I want to finish hurting you by my own immaturity. I'm just a few years older than you but I behave like a teenager, I didn't want to say the things I said in the roof; they were all lies, I just want to be with you."

"Tiffany..."

She raised her head and looked at me. Her eyes were watery and mine were burning, they probably just like hers.

"You found out my secret, I started going out with your father because I wanted to get close to you. I like you too much and I cannot stand these feelings. I just... I just want you to forgive me for having hurt you and allow me to be your girlfriend, I promise never to hurt you again, all I want is to make you happy."

I opened my mouth to respond but no sound came out. Tiffany leaned over and touched my lips, I closed my eyes and sighed in relief.

A vibration on my pillow made me open my eyes again and I found myself in my room, completely alone. I looked down at where my phone was vibrating indicating that I was getting a call, and I couldn't tell who it was because quickly I got up out of bed and ran to the bathroom, kneeling in front of the toilet and throwing probably everything I had eaten on the day. Tears wouldn't stop running down my cheeks as the arcades made me puke over and over again. I didn't know if I was crying from the pain I felt in my body to feel the food through my esophagus and out my mouth or if I was suffering from the fucking dream I just had.