~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Hello there..... My name is Jenna Adams. I am 17 years old and already want to end my life. I am worthless whore, some people try to convince me that every second of this torture is worth living and Most encourage my idea off ending it my life, they call me a whore that nobody needs. Day by day the bullying gets harder. Do i have any friends you might ask, I do know there is this one girl who is my best friend i do so much for her and i feel like i do so much and she does nothing back like i think of her as my best friend and she thinks of someone else as her best friend. You have no idea how much i miss the times we had. Parents?, nope died in a plane crash a year ago and i got away with holding onto the house for two years. Now you see why my life is absolutely horrid.
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Right know me and my Best Friend Allison are sitting at the lunch table chatting away with the occasional person passing me by threatening me.
"Jenna when are you going to do something about these threats, One day they are going to get to you and something bad can happen and you know what i mean Jenna please tell someone about this." Allison tells me for the millionth time even though every one already knows.
"Who am i supposed to tell Allison, Huh tell me who.... i have no one. You have to understand that they wouldn't be saying these things if they weren't true they want me gone and so do I." I reply to her so stupid question.
"Whatever Jenna if you want everyone to treat you like that then fine thats how you will be treated." At first i sat there dumbfounded until reality found its way into me. I ruined my last chance to have a good realationship with a friend. I have now lost the girl actually meant to me at this point, the girl who dragged me to go shopping and the one kept me happy. I Have lost Allison.
"Look Allison I'm sorry i didnt mean like that its just that people say things for a reason and i think what theys ay is true." I say trying to say our friendship.
"Thats exactly why i should do this." She says with a smirk apprearing on her face and yet again i am confused with her answer as if she read my mind, she answered my question.
Allison stood on the table and started talking " Hey everyone I have a secret of Jenna Whore Adams here, Jenna just so happens to part of the lesbian family and everynight she takes here picture of Renna Brady and masterbates to that picture every night" Allison yells while everyone turns to us. At first everyone gasped until they realized who Allison was talking about then they started laughing. They started chanting " Jenna the lesbian" over and over. Renna so happens to be the popular girl of the school and she is gonna be even more bitchy to me. None of what Allison said is true in fact I think Renna is a fake ugly slut. I run out of the cafeteria and out the school, I didn't even bother look where I was going until I bumped in a young looking girl.
"Jenna?" The girl asked.
"What" I say knowing by the way she looked she will Probally make fun of me.
" I know yo don't know who I am but I wanna be your friend I am younger than you but people consider me older than I look. You seem like a really nice person and I would love to be your friend." She say and at that moment I realized who she was and I looked at her in disbelief.
"Lottie.......Lottie Tomlinson??!!!" I ask exited but then it faded as realized there is no reason to be excited.
"Yes may I ask how you know me?" She asked a look of question pasted on here face.
"It's me JennaBean you Probally don't remembers but I really do miss you gu-". I was interrupt my her jumping on me and hugging really tight.....I guess she remembers me. Louis..... Yes Louis Tomlinson and I used to be the best of friends when we were little we did everything together until he had to move away. He said he was only gonna be there for six month bit he light he stayed for more than 3 year and this was when we 14. I geisha he came back because I see Lottie goes to school here.
"I missed you so much JennaBean, Louis he does to he talks about you all the time. he thinks you hate him and you don't want to see him because he was gone so long."
"I can't hate I him is it okay if I come see him.....what's your new address OMG I'm so hap-" Lottie interrupts me telling me something I thought was unbelievable and amazing!!!!
"Jenna I have to tell you something. You see when we cam back from New York Louis wanted to have a singing career so we signed up for the X-Factor and he made it through and one thing led to another now Louis is in a band with five other boys called One Direction."
" Ohh that's amazing and I have heard of them!!! Now can I see him?" I question.
"Actually he is coming home tomorrow to take a break from tour for a month so free to come over!!!"
"Ok!" I say all giddy. Maybe Louis will help with all these threats. maybe now I will have a reason to live??
I noticed that Lottie left but she left a note.
See you tommorow here is my number *********** call me for my address!
Lottie xx
I decided to just skip the rest of the school day and go home. I started walking up and I drowned my self with thoughts. ~What will happen tommorow~ was the the one question that stood out. I guess I'll just have to wait to see.
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Hope you enjoyed!!! I know it's bad though. I will try to improve my skills!!!
~ A_DarlingDirectioner Xx
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