Kiwis One shot Book Of Trash (BoyXboy)

You're my only....

"He's been very distant...very...not himself *sigh*.I did nothing wrong... that I know of...he has been ignoring my texts and calls. I don't know what's wrong... I just need him to talk to me" I said talking into my phone half crying half talking.

"I know Liam... I get he's not talking maybe he is just sad about Sunday..." lilah said sighing.

"But that was weeks ago and he said that he understood it wasn't my fault" I said feeling like shit.

"I don't know li you need to talk to him he is YOUR boyfriend" lilah said exaggerating 'your'. I sigh rubbing my temples . "You need to go see ry he needs you" she said. "Fine I'll go I'll text you later if he says anything" I say to her. "Yeah ok bye li" she says. I hang up the phone and put it in my pocket. I get up out of my bed and grab my big baggy navy blue sweater pulling it over my chest. I walk down the stairs and grab the keys out of the dish I left the house. I get into my car and drive off. Once I get there I turn off my car and knock on the door. I get greeted by Mrs walker... she looked like she was crying. "Hello Liam why are you here?" She asks sniffling a little . "I'm here to see Ryan Is he home?" I ask. She frowns and opens the door wider "he's.... well go on in and see" I walk inside to see Ryans family crying I walk further inside. My heart starts racing thinking of every bad outcome possible "he has d..died Liam... I'm sorry" he says crying. My heart shatters into a million pieces. Heart thumps loudly agenced my chest ,I breath in a sharp breath and start sobbing. "H..how?" I asked him. "He..didn't t.tell you?" He asked tears staining his green eyes.after a short pause "H..he died from lung cancer" he said sadly. "He never...told me..." I said looking down still crying hot tears. "Here he wanted me to give you this " he said handing me a note and a teddy bear:

Dear li bear
I'm sorry I never told you I love you enough, that I didn't tell you your mine, that I didn't hold you closer until my last days, that i never wanted to say goodbye,and that I never told you the one question I allways wanted to ask but your life will live on as mine fades away but allways remember that told you I'll love you through sickness and death to love till dispart even if I couldn't show you all the love in my heart in this life I will in the next. But with all said I couldn't let a good ring go to waist so I want you to wear it when you feel lonely and I will be there for you even if you won't see me I'll be in your heart. I love you Liam jay blackwood.

~love ryan mason walker

P.s open the teddy bear Liam.<3.

I look at the teddy bear and see there is a zipper on the bears stomach. I open it to see a beatiful gold ring with the words forever on it. I start crying loudly ,while Ryans family say there words for Ryan. He was going to marry...me? But... no he can't ... not like this. I put the ring on and I feel a cold hand on my shoulder I turn around and nothings there. I quietly whisper "you're my only... ".