Changing - My Journey

Who Am I?

Well Hi All!

My name is A. My name of coarse is not really A, but for now I would rather not say my name. I would rather not say my age, but I am Aussie ^-^ . I love to write, in fact I am writing this page at 12:38 am because I can't sleep. Whoops! So.. This is kind of like my own type of blog about my life and just what I get up to. Yes there is a theme to this craziness... It is change, changing myself for the better. Not changing for who society wants me to be, but I am changing because I know there is a better me, I am just still trying to become that person. Hopefully, I might be able to inspire at least 1 person to do the same as I am doing. This is going to be a hard challenge and I know it, but I am up to it! Follow me on my journey, through thick and thin on becoming my better me and #ChangeForTheBetter .

    

                                                                         My Life So Far ^-^

Well, so far, I have discovered I have a love for gymnastics and dance, I love to draw, the youtube community is amazing and maybe one day I will work up the courage to make my own channel. I am currently facing an anxiety disorder, something I have learnt to live and struggle with. I have an amazing family who I would never trade the world for and music is my escape.

                                                                   So I Want To 'Change' How & Why?

If there is anything I am not happy about, it is my mood.. How it effects my daily life, my connections with family and friends and how my point of view on many things changes.. I'm not sure what it is, and I'm not sure if I ever will know but I can go from a happy mood being an 100 all the way down to 1.. An unhappy, anti-social wreck. I hate this about myself but I just cannot control it. It would make sense to talk to, I don't know a therapist of some sort, and I just don't know if I should at the moment. I have only had this thing with my mood for about 3-5 years, so I am not at peace with it, I am learning how to face it and that's why I am willing to do anything to change. I don't however don't want to be on pills for this certain thing. Whenever I am taking pills for a mental thing, I always get somewhat depressed. I want to change, by writing my experiences through the years and seeing how far I would have come from about a year or so. Writing always helps me escape reality, so I figured it may help me with whatever is going on in my head. It is currently 12:51 am and the date is the 24/12/2016. Today is Christmas eve, the next day is obviously Christmas and then a week or so after is New Years Eve, and then we have New Years Day. On New Years Eve, people start making resolutions they would like to achieve for the year and I figured, hey why not have my resolution about blogging about my daily life on this thing, see where it goes and hopefully this time next year I can finally say 'My name is A, I have changed for the better and I am finally happy with my life.' That would be something I would love to say. I am not sure if anyone will read this, vote for this or even care about this, and to be honest I don't really mind because I just feel like writing is my escape, and if I am stressed I feel like writing my feelings helps me, A LOT!! So I am not expecting this to become known and to be honest, I am not sure.. Well I am hoping but I am not 100 percent sure if it will help but I am hoping it will. So if you would like to read this (THANK YOU SO MUCH IT MEANS THE ABSOLUTE WORLD I LOVE YOU SWEETNESS) I will not be writing on this until New Years Day which will be in 2017.. By then, I will know what I want to write on this, where I want it to go and how it will help with changing myself, for the better of coarse and not for what society these days wants be to become. I hope you enjoy reading along about this, and if you are interested, please share this to someone you think this may find this somewhat useful. I love you (if anyone is reading this) and I'll see you in 2017!! Bye all xx 

#ChangeForTheBetter