Dead End

Chapter 29

Courtney Pov

Nakatulala lang ako sa kawalan. Mga isang oras at kalahati na rin akong nakaupo at pinagmamasdan lang ang kurtina nang aking kwarto na nililipad nang hangin. Tinignan ko ang orasan at 12:03 na ang oras. Gusto kong umiyak pero wala na akong mailabas na luha. Gusto nang aking katawan ang magpahinga pero ayaw nang utak ko. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko . O ang umupo magdamag o hihilata na lang.

Inilibot ko ang aking mga mata at ang cellphone ko ang napagdiskitahan. I swiped and opened my gallery. It is full of our pictures together. Joy and lovely smiles plastered in our faces, but that was all back then. Isasama na lahat nang nakaraan. I smiled bitterly. Holding hands, back hugs, kisses, hugs ,these was all in the past. I sighed heavily. 
Then i saw our last video,this was taken at Paris. I played it.

Babe, ill asked you a question ,and you should answer it honestly that was me

Sure babe

What if, may nagbabalik na minahal mo dati at sinabing mahal ka pa ? I asked out of curiosity at nakita ko na mang natigilan siya.

I was so numb . I was so naive. I know i can feel it na may nagbago,pero ako parin itong ayaw tanggapin at paniwalaan

He smiled but it doesnt reached his ears

Edi pipikit ako, kasi hindi naman siya si courtney na mahal na mahal ko

Ha ha, pero bat di mo ginawa ?? hanggang salita ka na lang ,. Ano bang meron siya ,bakit hindi mo nagawa ang mga pangako . I guessed ,im not enough .

I ended the video at binato ang phone ko kung saan

Humiga ako at pumikit

I know God have plan for me, but do i have to go through this situation??
I dont deserve happiness . Ngumiti ako nang mapakla

Who am i to question God ??

Please, i will trust God in this challenged he gave . I can get through this.

Kinabukasan

"Maam, di po ba kayo papasok sa school nyo,? malalate na po kayo" dinig ko ang isang boses

"Nah, ill go na lang po later .im so tired this past few days. I want to rest." inaantok kong sabi

Yes. Its true, im so damn tired of all the shits Ive  been through

"Sige po maam, hahatiran na lang po kita nang gamot at breakfast nyo po" magalang niyang sabi

I nodded
"thank you po"

I want to take a dip rest. Yung kayang kayang burahin yung sakit na nakadagan sa dibdib ko na kahit sa pagtulog lang

I was about to rest nang my phone rang

Kingina. Kasasabi ko lang fusto ko nang tulog kasi ayaw magfunction nang utak at katawan ko kagabi . King inang yan ,nakakahighblood