The Truth About Love

Complicated

Jude couldn't stop his lips from quivering. Leo's lips moved so surely against his, he began to wonder if Leo had done this before. Of course he must've. Why, Jude had caught himself staring at Leo so often he'd began to wonder if he had feelings more than those brotherly ones for Leo. Now he knew he did. Leo's hands moved so surely on his body. Jude could feel the slight differences in pressure that Leo applied with his hands. When his hands slid over his stomach, Leo's touch hardened, feeling every ridge and every plane. When his hands moved to his chest and neck, Leo's touch softened to gentle caresses. But the kisses, they were always firm, always sure, always with a little tongue, tickling Jude's.

Jude pulled back from the kiss and looked at Leo, both panting for breath and flushed. How had they arrived at this stage? They'd only been returning from a day out with the boys from the team and once the others' cars had gone their way, Jude felt Leo's hand creeping up his thigh. They had been friends since the start of the year and Jude could tell Leo had been planning on this. The flicks of his hand turned into little kisses on his neck and Jude hadn't said anything. He did what any rational boy would do: he stopped the car near the edge of the woods and climbed into the back seat with Leo. There wasn't much room for two growing boys back there but the closeness was very intimate. Jude felt himself harden even more than when he first felt Leo's hand stroke his thigh. As these thoughts raced through Jude's mind, Leo had started to leave kisses on his neck, probably leaving marks from the little nips he felt were surely teeth. Leo's hands slid from the back of Jude's neck to between their bodies, one on either of their organs. They both needed release, and he'd never seen Leo this aggressive. He could see the lust clouding Leo's eyes and he knew that's what Leo saw in his.

Leo's hands unzipped both of their pants while returning to kiss Jude forcefully once more. Jude almost came from the frantic movements of Leo's hands as he pried open the button and rubbed the flat of his palm on his organ. Jude hissed and felt Leo's chest rumble in a moan. He reached down and pushed his hand past Leo's to grip the boy. As he watched Leo drop his head back in ecstasy, Jude wondered whether he'd missed this opportunity before. Had there been moments when Leo had suggested this before? Mustn't bother with that now, he mentally chastised himself. He began to stroke the erection he held in gentle motions through the fabric, while the hand that had been touching him fell limply to his side. He bent down and kissed Leo's chest through the white t-shirt. He could see his nipples poking sinfully erect against the fabric and he gently nipped on one, keeping a firm grip on Leo's hard-on.

'Fuck!' Leo muttered. His speech was slurring up a little and Jude could hear the slight cockney in him. 'Fuck Jude, did you take a course or something? You know just how to touch me!'

Jude's hand stopped mid stroke. Leo's eyes fluttered open. 'Wassama'er', he slurred, taking Jude's hand and pushing it against his erection again.

'I've never been with anyone before', Jude whispered and Leo's hand go slack on his own.

'You mean --

Jude turned his head to face the side window with his head slightly bowed. 'You're my first... everything. Best friend, kiss --

'You hadn't kissed anyone before me?' Leo's tone was amazed and he was paying rapt attention at the flush creeping up Jude's neck. (He almost felt sorry for the boy. He'd heard quiet rumours that Jude was a great lay from a lot of girls and quite a few boys. Leo had been very jealous -- not of the ones who talked of Jude's prowess, but of Jude himself. Later, he'd started leaving little hints, making small advances, but Jude behaved so innocently that Leo began to think he was playing hard to get. He'd organised this day out with the other boys just so he could have Jude to himself in a secluded place, just like this, and take him, even if it meant he would just be another box ticked on Jude's list. He just had to have this boy. Sex with your best friend had to be amazing. It might turn awkward and complicated later but for now he just wanted Jude's cock, however inept, inside him.)

'I'd like to be a lot more of your firsts', Leo said, trying to sound as earnest as possible. He began to reach for Jude's lips again, but Jude pushed him back with a hand on his chest.

'You really mean that?' Jude asked.

God his, eyes -- he looks like he's about to cry, Leo thought. He smashed his mouth against the virgin's, pushing his tongue past his teeth and pressing his erection against Jude's. Jude responded just as enthusiastically, continuing to touch Leo in all the right places he knew would appeal to him from his own solo experiences. Leo moaned into the kiss and bit Jude's lower lip. He opened his eyes, pulled back and tugged Jude's jeans down. Jude took the hint and shifted to the other side of the seat to speed up the process while Leo stripped himself. Breathing heavily and muttering light curses under his breath, Leo reached into the pocket of his jeans and produced a condom.

'Here, put this on', he said handing the condom to Jude.

'Do you really want to do this here?'

'You got a better idea right now? Besides, do you really think you can make another two hours' journey to town with this?' Leo smirked, rubbing Jude's erection. 'Come on put it on. We're going to fuck.' Jude's hesitation was really putting him off now. Virgin or not, how could he be so focused on anything but getting off right now?

Jude was almost finished when Leo pulled down his underwear and kissed the head of his cock. He'd never handled a condom before. His hands wouldn't stop shaking and he almost tore the condom while trying to open the packet. Once he managed to get the packet he struggled to pull the sheath onto his organ. His nervousness doubled when Leo let out a sigh of exhaustion.

'God Jude, give me that. Didn't you ever go to sex-ed?'

That was it. When Leo pulled the condom onto his cock and rubbed his spit on it, Jude came in spurts inside the condom.

'What the fuck, Jude!' Leo shouted. Jude hardly enjoyed the orgasm. He could hear the disappointment and anger in his best friend's voice and he struggled to say something but ended up collapsing on the seat, his cock still twitching in its confinement. Once his high subsided, he saw Leo was already pulling his pants back on.

'Get dressed, you prick', he muttered.

'Leo, I--

'Take me home Jude.'

Jude almost cried at the tone of finality in Leo's voice. Once he threw the condom out and pulled his clothes back on, they both were back in the front seat, Jude set up a slow pace for the ride back. Neither of them spoke and Leo kept shifting uncomfortably in his seat. He didn't know whether he should start a conversation, try to apologise again, ask him out to a date perhaps? He would love to date his best friend and part of him was certain Leo would too. It would probably make the prospect of sex a lot more relaxed and approachable, especially given what had happened. Maybe he just needed some time to gather himself and his thoughts. He kept watching Leo shifting in his seat out of the corner of his eye. He thought he saw Leo's mouth open a few times, hoping he would say something, anything. The road was empty, save for the occasional vehicle. Should he help Leo get off? Twice he considered pulling over in a secluded area and propose the idea to Leo, but the way Leo sat stiffly and uncomfortably next to him, told him he'd probably get punched. Not to mention the problem of his confidence. He'd almost cried when Leo said he'd wanted to be a lot more of Jude's firsts. He didn't want to lose a friend. A voice sighed in his head, Sex makes everything complicated. Where'd he heard that?

'Jude where are you going? Stop the car!' Leo's shout pulled him out of his thoughts. He realised he'd already passed five blocks from where Jude lived.

'Shit, I'm sorry, I didn't...', he said and began to chew on his lip and braked. He thought he heard a mutter of "being sorry is all you can do" before the door slammed and he was watching Leo's retreating form in the mirror. He saw his best friend walk with quick and sure steps toward his building, while pulling on the hood of his jacket. 

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Hey everyone, hope you enjoyed this and if you did, hit the vote button! I'm really proud of this story and I'm going to working mostly on this one while I've got time off! The cover image features Alex Prange a.k.a. Jude (I know it's extremely basic, and I'd appreciate it immensely if anyone would like to help me make a better one.) Let me know what you think!