BLSC #1 : The Undercover Model

Chapter 22 - He Hates That Word

Kayla Michaelson

I think I heard it wrong..

Stupid Valentines Day tradition!
We don't have any classes on this kind of days , I hate it! Why did I come to school? There's an announcement that we should go to the field and it happens there's a stage there.

The school band starting to play love songs and it sucks. I'm sitting at the back alone , looking at people enjoying it. I plugged my earphones and turn on my iPod. Playing a lot of sad songs.. such as

That Should Be Me - Justin Bieber
On Bended Knee - Boyz II Men
So Sick - Ne-Yo
Wouldn't Change a Thing - Demi&Joe

I feel like shit.. right now. Put my hood on and lean my back to the wall. I hate Andrew.. yeah I hate Andrew.

Why all of this has to happen? My poor heart. Now I'm starting to hate having 2 identities. I can't be myself at school and I'm starting to get lonely.

Suddenly someone wiped my tears and I quickly opened my eyes and find Andrew standing there. I glared at him and he sits beside me. He took my left earphone and plug it into his left ear.

"Go away" I said

"I made you cry" He stated and I don't know why he said that

"Of course , it's always you. Who else asshole" I said in a cold tone

"Why are you listening to sad songs?" He asked and I sighed. Pulling my earphones and turn off my iPod. I turned to him

"Get lost Andrew"

"I'm sorry Kayla" He said in a soft tone

"How do you even feel when I tutored you? You knew I was your girlfriend but you still asking me to tutor you" I asked and lean my back to the wall again

"Clingy , seeing you a few hours only isn't enough. Even seeing you as Carla still makes me turn on. It test me about myself control" He answered

"You made me look like a fool" I said and he sighed

"I'm sorry"

"Let Axel have me then , you even let him take me" I said not wanting to see his reaction

"Pride made me like that , I hate admiting it in front my friends because they will tease me for being whip"

"Pride.." I laughed bitterly

"Now they know about my feelings and I feel better about it. They teased me but I just love that I can admit my feelings freely" He stated

"I really want to throw chocolate at you and force you to eat it so your allergy will come out" I said coldly

"I'll do it if you want that , it won't make me die anyway" I turnes to him , he's insane. I stay silent and just watch all the students dancing at the field. A lot of couples kissing , hugging and being sweet to each other.

I'm jealous..

"Why didn't you just expose me to all student body?" I asked

"I forgot my intention as the time goes by Kayla , when my friends bragged about it that's when I remember it again. When did you hear all this?" He asked

"When I got home from a photoshoot and I heard all of you talking about it at the boys changing room" I said truthfully

"Well that's when my friends bragged about it".

"I really want to come out as Kayla though" I said looking down to my feet

"Why?"

"I felt lonely and not myself when I'm at school. At first it was comfortable but as the time goes by.. It gets lonely and just weird. I want to have friends at school too not just at my work or outside school" I said and he suddenly hold my hand. I looked at our hands and how much I miss his touch

"I suggest you to enjoy it.. The school is almost over , it's not that late for you to be yourself" He said

"There will be people who become fake towards me"

"That's life , perks of being that person. If you can see , I don't have that many friends besides Aiden , Archer , Morris , Christian , Axel and Matt but that's life. We have to go through it.. fake or not" I pulled my hand from his grip

"People will start to talk about our relationship.. The fact that your ex-girlfriend is Carla the nerd and the person that Bella bullied was Kayla Michaelson" I sighed big time as I realise that

"Haters gonna hate , let them. Live your own life , there's a lot of people who loves you. Think about them not the person that hates you" I turned to Andrew and can't help but looking at that handsome face. He turned to me

"I'm sorry Kayla , everything. I really deserve everything but I don't want to let you go. I like you and it's killing me.." He said sadly

"You hurt me , the scar is still there"

"Why didn't you just mad at me? Yell at me.. or punch me or slap me or just throw your anger at me?" He asked

"I want to make a revenge and I'm planning to make you fall in love with me more but Stacy reminded me if I do that.. It will hurt me more because not just you who will fall for me more but also myself. Instead of facing you again and again.. I decided it's the best for us to break up"

"You don't even need to try make me fall for you because I already did. I already fall for you.. you can ask my mom how stupid my face was when I'm going to meet you" I sighed.. I really want to believe that

"Give me one last chance , I won't let this slip again. I will do it right" He said and I don't know what to do.. I don't know what to answer. I turned to him and he looked at me seriously

"I won't hurt you again.. I swear I won't"

"I'm not that easy" I said and he chuckled

"I'll earn it.. I'll make you fall for me all over again Kayla" I turned away and find myself slowly smiling. I miss him.. and I hope he won't hurt me again this time.

"Goodluck ex-boyfriend" I said

"How I hate the ex word" He mumbled and I chuckled silently