Chapter 1
I screamed at him "Why do you do this to me?" "Haunting my dreams with your beautiful face...Everywhere I go all I see is you..You!". I abruptly sat straight up in bed panting and sweating uncontrollably. "Its the same dream every night ever since he...he died" I thought aloud. He was so torn yet so beautifully tormenting. I lusted for the unknown man in my dreams. I just need to get some sleep I thought. I lay there it was 3:47 a.m. God I need to get some sleep. I slowly drifted off into sleep but was soon awaken. "London! London get your ass up we have this thing called school ya know?" This is my usual best friend isn't she so nice? "Destiny, yes I know I just don't feel good." "Oh don't give me that shit..Just ignore Shelby. She doesn't matter but school does that's your future not her!" Shelby torments me and hurt me in the worst way possible. She made him leave me, she made him leave, she killed Hayden! Not me..I remember him screaming and crying for me to leave. I could see the hurt and betrayal in his eyes. I begged for him to listen. To just understand that it wasn't me who told. She was. She told everyone his life, his childhood, of molestation, abuse, and crack cocaine. He was bullied from the day everyone found out. They would email him telling him he deserved it. They said he was trash and didn't deserve the air he breathed but, to me he was beyond.. perfect. When I left that night I knew things would never be the same but I never expected what I got. His mother found his corpse in the tub. His arms were shredded from self inflicted cuts, his legs were completely unrecognizable, but his face.. oh his face was still as beautiful as ever with blood stained cheeks. It was the worst night of my life..My boyfriend had killed him self. The one I loved took his own life because of people that were so cruel. I loved him.. Why did he leave me? I snuck into his room that night and slept in his bed and thought of all our nights in this bed. All our memories, his smile, his laugh, his smell, I had truly loved him and now.. now.. he is gone.
