Once a Fighter

I was once a fighter,

Now I just give up

I was once a lover and a friend,

Now I'm just an empty shell

I told you I can't do this anymore

I told them I can't be here anymore

I tried to take myself away

The pills don't work

The blades don't work

Nor the rope or wire

I'm an empty shell

Living in a pain filled life

A ghost in a world of the living

I wish for it to stop

This unbearable pain to just dissipate

The question is,

Will it ever go away?

Can I ever be happy?

I was once a fighter,

Now I'm merely a ghost in the world

They did this

Yet you say "You can do it."

And that "Everything will be ok"

But will it really ever be ok?

Will this empty feeling ever go away?

Some say yes, some say no

I say, "I simply don't know"

Because I was once a fighter

Now I'm an empty shell

Fighting to be gone