Dead roses (Tyler Joseph ff)

Dead roses

Love is like a dead rose one tiny thing happens and it's gone dead it just went away you can't fix help or do whatever to it. It just won't be the same can't work bye bye. You can say you love someone then the love dies. Same for a rose you say you will take care of it but then you forget and it dies.

I guess you can tell Gerard Way that love isn't a joke because people use love to 'fix them' or make them think 'they're a better person. But then you can say love is a joke because people just use you for your money your body whatever you want just because you think they love you sooooooo much but they don't and your just clueless.
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Hi I'm Kate just an 18 year old girl in high school who drinks her problems away, cuts, hates her body, has anxiety, has her own demons who tell she's worthless wants her dead but she also wants her dead, best friends with her doubts, and has no family yay.

Why I have no family you ask well that's because me and my family meaning my mum, dad, and sister all moved to Seattle yay. We lived Ohio but they wanted to move so we did. But sadly mum and dad died in a car crash, yeah ouch it didn't really hit me that hard cause I know we're all going to die one day and they never really like me that much also I was an accident oops. It did really hit my sister hard though she got depressed I already have depression since like the age of 6. Anyways she got depressed and I guess she just thought hey life sucks let's jump off this high building fun. Yeah sounds fun I would have done the same thing but my friend Josh suggested that I came back to Ohio so I won't be alone.

I wasn't alone but I still had thought and the voices in my head telling me just to do it and kill myself but Josh barely leaves me alone the only time he dose is to spend time with his other friend or shall I say best fren Tyler I haven't met him but what Josh tells me he seems fun and that we have some things in common so I don't really know.
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It's Sunday so Josh is going to spend half the day with Tyler and the other half with me. I know right it's weird. Hey Kate Josh isn't here so you know that means. Yup me being here with you alone. But don't worry I'll NEVER leave you. Hey let's do that thing where you know you do something to kill US so you know we can be free.

As you can see that's my demon that never leaves me alone. I call him yes him well actually I don't know what to call weird he has been with me all my life and he doesn't have a name.

I walk to my bathroom open the side mirror I have get a little case that has about 10 or more blades in it. I open it up grab the cold metal that I call my paint brush put against my wrist or what I like to call it my messed up canvas I horizontally start moving my paint brush one time move a little do it a second time.

As im about to do it a third time but noooooo my phone dings meaning I have a text. "Fuuuucccckkkkk." I yell out I wanted to get happiness but no I bet you it's Josh texting me.

Spooky Jim💀- hey im omw you want anything
Kitten 😝- get me skittles and REDBULL  please dj spooky Jim
Spooky Jim💀- man I swear you are just like Tyler always wanting redbull
Kitten 😝- well I guess I like this Tyler then 😝
Spooky Jim💀- you can meet him tomorrow at school 😉
Kitten 😝- but I don't wanna go to hell😿
Spooky Jim💀- aww don't cry kitten I'll get you redbull
Kitten 😝- yay 😊 gtg see you later

Oops forgot to mention I'm going back to hell but it's my last year who cares though. "Shit shit shit." I whisper/yell because there's blood I totally forgot about hehehe oops :). Might as well clean it up I guess cause you know Josh is coming but is he really going to make me meet Tyler. Maybe he's not that bad he said we have a lot in common but he also said that my key kat has a bad name.

Like come on a black cat named jish is not a fish that's the best name ever. (I going name my next kat that.) Oh yeah I'm still bleeding. I go to the sink turn the hot water put my arm under it left arm to be exact. I put under the running water and feel the burning sensation of the hot water. If you haven't notice I basic don't feel pain anymore yeah that's how broken I am.

You should have cut deeper dumb ass. No wonder why you couldn't do it because your worthless. Can't do anything else good be to be worthless can you. You pice of trash. Bet you can't even imagine to do something right.

Shut up you're not real you're not real. Oh I am real you can't do anything to get rid of me. I get my arm out of the sink bloody water wow. I put a black long sleeve on and some black leggings go down stairs into my kitchen. Open up the uper cabinet grab some mango vodka say fuck it and drink straight from the bottle. Felling this burning sensation in my throat that feels good to. (Wtf did I write?) 

I put away the drink that brings me happiness and went to the couch. Now here's the question do I want to play mario kart or do I want to watch American horror story. I'll watch American horror story then play mario kart with Josh.

The doorbell rings which means "DJ SPOOKY JIM IS HERE." I yell for no reason but now I have a reson my reson to make my neighbors hate me even more than they already do.

"IT'S KITTEN!" Josh yelled cause he also knows that I want my neighbors to hate me more. "Jishawa wana pway
Mario kart please." Oh yeah I forgot to tell you I'm a five year old child in my black heart."MARIO KART!" But I also think Josh is a five year old child to. "JOSH MY NEIGHBORS ARE GOING TO HATE ME!" I said with a wink and we start laughing.
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"Kate I'm going to beat your ass." Josh said try to beat me at mario kart but I'm the master. "Yeah if you could get out 5th place." He mumbles something then says. "Wait till you play Tyler." Huh he sounds confendent maybe me and this Tyler kid will get along good. "Oh so he likes redbull and mario kart I think I might fall in love." I say joking around. "Hey you never know you two are very much alike if I do say so myself."

Yeah someone can be very alike as me no one and I mean no one can be like me with axinty depression my own demons following me everywhere some who has more cuts then pride yeah must be very alike.
"Yeah sure just hurry up and cross the finish line."

Josh came in 5th place and me in 1st I don't like to brag or anything but I'm pretty good at mario kart. "Bye DJ Spooky Jim." I said waving. "Bye kitten I'll see you in hell tomorrow." He said giving me a hug. "See you in hell." I said with a sigh.

I go to my room and my demon comes. Ha people are going to make fun of you. I mean who wouldn't you have more cutts then friends. Your not going to bother me tonight. Oh but I am I never leave you. I start huming a song. That's never going to work kitten. Bet you Tyler going to think you're a freak. Which you are and you can't hide it.

You know what fine fuck it he is going to think I'm a freak which I am so let's end it. I grab my paint brush get my canvas and start making art. I pass out but I wake the next day fuck there's a pool off blood and hell starts in an hour yay.
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Written - 12/26/16
Published - 12/28/16
A new story cause fuck it yays
Love is vivid no we're not in love- deadroses by blackbear
1476 words
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