I stayed at that hospital for three days, I slept curled in a chair right beside Richards bed holding on to his hand,I ate barley anything at all, school wasn't even a thought in my brain those three days. When the doctor woke me this morning and said he needed to run some tests I said okay and walked outside. The cool breeze froze my face as tears fell down my cheeks. I got up and ran to Richards house hoping there was anything he left to tell why he had done this. I opened the door after knocking a few times, no one was home so I went straight to Richards room which hadn't been touched since the incident. I searched the floor and through the blankets, nothing, I figured maybe something was under the pillows so I threw them on the floor and there it lay, Richards phone. I turned it on and punched in the password he had told me. It was on the camera more or less the video part. I hit the gallery in the corner and found the dreaded video. I sat on his bed and hit play. His words rang clear and true " I'm Richard Stevens and I'm going to kill myself" I hit pause and cried, he killed himself because of me. I ran back to the hospital and right to the door of his room, I knocked lightly on the door and a doctor said to come on in. I cracked the door open and came in sitting down in my chair beside Richards bed. " Is he going to be alright?" I asked quietly " miss I didn't catch your name there's something I have to tell you" " Its Layla and you can tell me" " It's going to be hard are you sure?" " ya I'm already hurt enough" " well okay Layla, when Richard cut his wrist he did it slowly and in different lines this allowed the blood to flow from different places and quiet quickly. Unfortunately he went into a deep coma and we don't think he's going to wake up from it. Mrs Stevens has told us to take him off life support when we feel like we should but I don't think you'd agree" " TAKE HIM OFF YOU CANT HE'LL DIE IF YOU DO THAT YOUR CRAZY AND ILL JUST KILL MYSELF." I ran away straight to Richards house, I slammed open the door and ran right into mrs Stevens " you wanna take him off life support, you wanna kill your son, you don't even wanna give him a chance at life ARE YOU CRAZY?" " Layla I know but I can't afford the life support and he won't wake up anyway" " there's gotta be something if you take him off life support you won't have just one dead person you'll have two and you'll be to blame for the second one" I stormed out of that house and back to Richards hospital room. " Doctor Arnold right, I know life support is expensive but is there anything I can do to pay for it. I mean I don't necessarily have the money but could I volunteer here and help you guys?" " we could make an arrangement, depending on how long Richard will need life support will depend on how long you will volunteer for us, let's say every well he needs life support is every two weeks you volunteer for us okay?" " yes yes I'd do anything to keep him alive thank you. He patted my leg and walked out of the room closing the door gently. I shcooched closer to Richards bedside and grabbed his hand. I squeezed it gently " Richard if you wake up and don't remember anything I promise I will still love you and if you wake up and remember everything except me I will still love you dearly and if you wake up and never want to speak to me again I promise with all my heart I will love you I just want.... need you to wake up please"
