Different Phases

"Destruction "

A couple of days ago, was meant to cherish if I knew it would of turned out like this I would've been making every moment of her life the best. I have regrets and I have faults I lay here in this hospital bed and I can hear her sweet voice speak to me. I don't know what happen to me all I know now is that I can't open my eyes, I guess I'm in a coma. I can here her cry on the side of my hospital bed ,blaming herself. But it wasn't her fault I have something to own up to but I can't lift my voice nor my eyelids. 2 days ago I was rapped in the storage room at my job. I screamed and yelled but there was no help for me. He bruise my wrist that is now covered in braceletes and a hospital tag. My head was banged against the floor my body covered in cooking oil that was spilled from me fighting him. He bit me and sucked on my flesh as if he was a lesh trying to amuse me. But I was deeply left in dissatisfaction. I didn't tell no one not even ray about what happen. I wonder did they take my bracelets off, I hope not . Ray will get crazy and will go wild and I'm scared. I know if she finds out she'll be mad and probably go federal but I don't want her to go to jail over such foolishness. So I through off sex for a whole week so she couldn't tell the difference in my area. Another thing, I haven't been going to work like I told her I was. I've been dodging my job because the guy that did this to me is the manager. John is a straight pig the way he look at the other carhops I should've known. But I can't think on it any harder cause it'll make my heart rate go to the extreme. Being in this coma actually helps you think of things but I don't like this death experience. I've been doing a side hustle and I hope ray doesn't find out but if she do I'm dead.