What Lies Beneath The Smile

January 07, 1991

I was Hoping to start my year of great. I was hoping to go to school and have a fresh new start. I was hoping that everything will get better. However this was just a dream and I new that. A girl can dream right? Pshhh of course!

I was writing in my diary until I got rudely interrupted by a loud voice coming from downstairs. "ELAINA GET DOWN HERE FOR DINNER" yelled my do I dear call him my father, eh why not, father

"Stop yelling I will be down in 5 minutes" I replied hoping to get a chance to finish writing my thoughts in my diary, my diary is simply a notebook I write my fe- thoughts in. I guess I should be happy I mean I have a sister, a brother, a mom, and a dad. It is a lot of peoples dreams however I have a different dream that can be summed up into one word happiness. That was and has been my only dream for like 6 years. Anyways I should probably go downstairs before I get grounded!

I walk in and I see everyone sitting at the table giving me the what I call "death glare" oh yeah it makes anyone uncomfortable.

"Hello mom, dad, Derek (my older brother), and Samantha (my younger sister). How are you all doing I-"

"Elaina cut the crap I don't care what you have to say ha in fact no one does"

"But dad I-I-I just (I saw him giving me the death glare) I am sorry"

Oh gosh how I hate this I hate living in fear I just want to be happy I mean don't get me wrong I totally know that I could have it worst I mean heck I could be lost or raped or kidnapped, I later wrote in my diary

It is getting late I have school tomorrow I should probably go to bed, since I am expected to have straight A's and never get in trouble. I have no friends. I have no one that cares about me. And with those words in my head I fell asleep.

The next morning I had to decide what to wear. Oh I almost forgot I don't get the option of what I want to wear. Not that I should complain heck, at least I have clothes. At least I have school were I go almost every day to escape this house. At least I could say I loved school. Ahhhh school yes when I think of it, it just puts a smile on my face. I guess you could call me um.... Antisocial. Okay... Okay so maybe I don't have a lot of friends. And for heavens sake I am only fifteen I should be having the time of my life ha yeah right.

However I go to school and I smile and act like there is nothing wrong. But behind that smile of mine that spreads ear to ear is the truth. The truth of what lies beneath the smile.

Thanks for reading Hope you enjoyed this chapter comment suggestions on how I can make the chapters coming up better. This is my first story so tell me your opinion!  There is sort of a cliffhanger but not really so um yeah sorry it is short but it will get longer thanks!