I'm a really negative person. I don't believe anything last forever or in any religion. I don't believe love exists, I think people just like the image of loving someone and spending there lives with that one special person, but I don't believe that anyone can ever be together till death, if you do then you're more fucked than I am. I don't believe in marriage and the thought of children and having a child gives me an uneasy feeling, which most people would find odd because I'm a female. I think death is beautiful, I'm not afraid of it, I'm more afraid of the people around me and what there reaction would be, if they'd move on, I hope so. I've tried killing myself three times already, maybe I'll get to those stories later, maybe not though. Fuck my life is such a mess, it's kinda fucking horrid to be honest. Nothing good has ever happened to me ever in my whole life nothing, everything turns to shit. I was thinking about just writing a story of my life, "mi vida loca" but mi vida isn't loca, not really. I think I'll just go with whatever's at the top of my head, from the beginning to the sad end.
