Second thoughts....

Chapter 1

Ayeina p.o.v.

"AYEINA LENYAH JONES WAKE YO UGLY A$$ UP!!!"

I turned over in my bed to block out my best friend. 

Suddenly i feel thenblankets get ripped off of me.

I sit up and look at versace.

"Take yo a$$ back to yo house and get in yo bed no MINE and let me sleep. Great god you annoying. Fuck outra here." I say.

"You got two minutes befo we leave and look atcha. You not even out of bed get up."

I jump out the bed and run to the bathroom,"Why didnt you tell me. You idiot."

"I did for a whole 10 minutes but you just yelled at me to shut up."

"Did not."

"Whateva, hurry up."

I turn onthe shower, strip, and get in. I wash my hair and wash hen get out. I dry off and wrap the towel around me and walk out. I gpt to my drawer and pull out a bra and panty set. I drop the towel and quickly put them on. Versace clears his throat.

"Nigga shut up you seen me naked plenty of time dis aint new."

I go to my closet and pull out my black micheal kors leather pants with gold wrapping around my thighs, with my gold and black crop top that has #1 bitch on it. I slip them on hen pull out my gold and black nikes. I walk out my closet and go back into the bathroom and put on my gold jewelry and do my make up. I slip my golds on my teeth and run my fingers through my hair and let it go crazy. I walk out he bathroom. I grab my micheal kors bag and mcm bookbag.

"Ok im ready." I say

"Bout time why females take so long?" He ask

"So we can look good fo all yall greedy males outchea. Thats why and yall still dont appreciate us."

"We do but c'mon we already late thanks to you."

We walk down stairs and head out.

"Ay?" He ask

"Yeah?"

"Where mama dukes?"

"I dont know. One day she just left a note and hella lotta money on da table and said she leaving and neva coming back so dont look fo her. I neva saw her eva since den. Dat was 3 months ago."

"Why didnt you tell me? You know i would have help pay the bills and shit. Yu my best friend and i would do anything fo ya."

"Dis why. I kmow u bestie and all but i dont need yur help or sympathy. Ok i got this. I get paid a good amount at work. Everything is paid and full. So i dont need yur help. Ok?"

"Im just worried about you since your pops died."

"I been fine since he died. So stop bringing him up when you dont get yur way with me. Dats not a reason."

"Ay-"

"Deja caer bien, callate y dejalo ser." I say

(Drop it, shut up and let it go.)

"Dont start-"

"Whateva." 

I turn towards the window and ignore him.

Three months ago my mom said she was leaving. She told me she couldnt take anymore of me and my "drugie" friends and how i "disrespected" her. She told me i either leave her house or she leaving. I told her im not keaving because she is my mom and i didnt bring my friends around the house except fo versace and i would neva disrepesct her. But she thought different. One thing people didnt know about her was she was on drugs and was sick. And she sometimes didnt remeber me or was seeing things. I guess her med or whateva she was on pushed her ova the edge and one morning i got up to give her her meds and she wasnt there i went in the kitchen and saw a note 

It said:

Lo siento, pero tuve que irme. Dejé algo de dinero en la mesa para que puedas pagar las cuentas por un par de meses. Te amo pero no escuchas y no me gustan los niños que consumen drogas y no escuchan para que puedas ir al infierno.

im sorry but i had to leave. i left some money on the table so you can pay the bills for a couple months. i love you but you just dont listen and i dont like kids who do drugs and dont listen so you can go to hell.

I sat in my room and cried all day. I didnt even speak to versace or let him in the house. I told him i was sick and my mom was taking care of me. The next day i was just fine as if nothing happened.

My dad died in a hit and run. He was versace trianer in these streets. He taught him everything he knows. When my dad got hit he told versace to take care of me and take ova for him. He was the son my dad always wanted. He left everything to him and only a hand full of cash to me and my mom. But versace gave it to us. My dad was the boss and everyone knew that. When he died it set off a whole lot of turf wars on who get what of my pops. But vesace wasnt worried about that at the time. He wanted to catch his killers. Three days later i found the killers and tied them up and took them to the warehouse my dad took care of business. I called versace and told him to meet me there. He was vexed. Xauss my dad neva let menear there warehouse and i was neva aloud in it. But one night befo the murder i followed him cause i was curious. That how i knew where it was.

Versace came. When he saw the guys sitting there he was confused. I told him these was the killers. He was more confused. I told him alittke reaserch led me to them. He said i was my daddy's daughter alright. He gave me a gun and told me to handle it. Before that day i neva held a gun but i seen my dad do it plenty of times that i mastered it. 

But befo i shot i started crying and yelling how they took my daddy away from me. And without think i rounded off three shots quickly and they was dead. No one found rhe bodies and neva will. Since then versace ran these streets and everyone knew that and being his best friend everyone knew not to mess with me and that how it was. I was 14 then.

Versace  been playing the male role in my life ever since even though we been friends since diapers.

"AYEINA!" Versace yell

"What? You aint gotta yel im right here."

"We at scbool lets go now. We already 20 minutes late."

I get out the car and storm into the school i check in and run to my class leaving him behind. I was still mad at him for thinking i need him all the time and treating me like a child. I dont always need him for god sakes ive been on my own for a while and he didnt know. So right now im not talking to him. He act as if im a charity case since my pops died.

I walk into my class

"Ms. Jones your late. Why."

"Oh déjame en paz yo podría cuidar menos. Siempre molesta a alguien. Cállate por una vez."

(oh leave me alone i could care less. you always nagging someone. shut up for once.)

"Excuse me?"

"Nothing."

I sit down in my seat and put in my ear buds and go to sleep. Someone shakes me telling me its time to leave. I grab my stuff and walk out the room. I dont even feel like school so i walk out the school and walk to the corner store.

I buy some snacks and walk home.

When i get home i strip out my clothes and put on a tank top and lounge in my underwear and tank. Eventually i fall asleep.