Neighbours

my house

A/n this may be confusing at first but just go with it. I'm back writing tho.

Ali's pov

"grayson I thought you would understand! " I pled as I watched him flush the toilet.

" alison listen if when you said you needed to show me something I would've thought this i wouldn't have agreed to not flushing them!" grayson said and I was starting to think about middle school. When I was admitted to a mental hospital after trying to overdose on random pills.

"grayson Atleast I'm not still trying to end my life, in middle school it was horrible I was so badly bullied that I got sent to a mental hospital and after that I've just cut and by flushing the blades will Mabey help me but if I want to cut enough I will find a way to cut" and with that Grayson started to cry and cry while he sat there hugging me and then he started kissing each and every one of my cuts. 

"ali just because you cut doesnt mean ill love you any less but ill love you more. i wont leave you but ill stay with you. i wont give you any less trust just because you cut but i will say one thing that if you feel you wanna cut i want you to cut my arm how you would cut yours" with that i had yo tell him what goes through my mind to make me cut. "grayson i would do that but when i cut its because my depression gets so bad that my mind go's crazy with horrible thoughts that the rst of my emotions go numb and my body just feels numb. its likei have this weight that keps m there"

" that is when i start to cut because wheni cut myself its like my dpression numbs itself and i can actually think. cutting is like a rlease i can think for a minute. i know this may be hard for you to hear but its the truth" i said in al  honesty and grayson just looked at me like i was doing something alright. "babe i know you need help so i think im going to make you and appointment for threapist ethan used to be depressed alot and so a threapist  helped him a lot" hearing grayson wanting to help makes me feel good. "but I think you need to go to a mental institution" 

I wake up shortness of breath, screaming because it all felt so real. grayson who was laying beside me jumps at my screaming checks all over me to make sure I'm not bleeding or anything. "ali, Alison why are you screaming are you ok? did someone hurt you?" grayson speaks with panic and shaky voice.

"grayson calm down I'm fine well .." I think its time to tell him I cant keep it to myself any longer. "well what Alison I'm scared" grayson adds. "i cant really explain so ill just show you" I pulled off my shirt went into the bathroom and cleaned the makeup off my stomach and showed Grayson.

A/N
Cliffhanger, I'm sorry this doesn't really match my theme but it's the only thing I could think of so here you go long awaited chapter.