Quick warning before you read this, cheating & mention of rape, if you're not okay with these or they're triggering to you please do not read.
Harry's Pov
"How could you?! How fucking could you Potter?!" I flinched at him saying Potter instead of Harry.
"D-dray listen I-"
"It's Malfoy to you Potter." He sneered. I felt my heart drop to my stomach as I watched my boyfriend- or possibly ex now, put up every single wall he has taken down around me.
"Please just- just let me explain-"
"Explain? Explain?!" He shouted. "Explain what exactly? How you fucking cheated on me with weaselette! I know exactly what happened Potter. After all I did walk in on it only an hour ago." I gulped out of fear. Draco had walked right in on me and Ginny right as she was reaching her climax.
"I'm sorry you never want to have sex! I have needs you know!" Draco looked at me in disbelief and my eyes widened after I realized what I had said. "Wait, no- no Dray I- I didn't mean that. Please you- you gotta know I didn't mean that." Draco looked downright pissed, but I knew he was on the verge of tears.
"I'm sorry I got fucking raped." I flinched. His eyes were full of tears threatening to pour out. I knew the experience was traumatic enough for him to think about, let alone talk about in anger. "Okay? I'm- I'm sorry that doing sexual things gives me flashbacks of what happened, I-I'm sorry that sometimes it's hard for me to tell if your him or actually you!" His voice cracked when he said him and that's when the tears started to fall. "I'm- I am truly sorry that I alone am not good enough for you, that the golden boy needs my body because the rest of me is just an annoyance." I felt helpless as he went into a downwards sprial. I walked over to him and hugged him tightly. His entire body began to shake.
"I- I am so sorry Draco.. I don't care about sex, yeah sure Ginnys a nice fuck, but that's all she is. I hate her so fucking much, she was high and just started throwing herself on me and then she was blowing me and I was so overcome with pleasure I didn't even realize what I was doing until you walked in." Draco was shaking more violently now, and I realized that me telling Draco about how me and Ginny fucked was not the smartest thing. I pulled away to look at him, he had his eyes shut tightly. "Hey, look at me." He shook his head no. "Please, Draco, look at me." He slowly opened his eyes, that's when I noticed how broken he actually looked. "I was wrong, I am so so sorry. I don't deserve you." He tucked his head in the nook between my shoulder and my neck.
"No, your wrong, I don't deserve anyone.. it's always been that way." He laughed at himself in pity. "Who could possibly love a filthy little death eater like me?" I swear to god I felt my heart break. He was showing me emotion which was good, but I knew it wouldn't last. "I love you.." He whispered, I could feel tears on my neck and frowned.
"I love you too..." I muttered. "I'm sorry Draco." He pulled away, wiped his tears and laughed.
"Sorry doesn't fix anything Potter." I chocked back tears as I felt he was finally going to leave me, that I had finally driven him away. But then his lips turned upwards into a small smile. "But it's a start." I smiled back. Sure I fucked up bad, but I was starting to see that maybe things could still be mended.
I didn't want to go to into detail about Draco getting raped because it wouldn't seen seem like a normal conversation if they just started talking about it, it's a thing those two would just mention during a fight like that, you know? Maybe I'll write a piece connecting to this one about what happened to Draco but that's probably not likely so sorry. Anyways I hope you guys enjoyed this one xx
