Dempeo: 2015 & 2016

Decisions

March 2015

Patrick:

I never thought I'd ever say goodbye to Grey's Anatomy. When the show began in 2005 I always assumed I would stay until the very end. It gave me the opportunity to get my acting career back on track & to meet incredible people, particularly Ellen Pompeo.

I still remember it like it was yesterday. When I walked in to audition for the role of Derek Shepherd I was nervous to say the least. My agents set me up with auditions for other television shows and movies prior to Grey's & I never got them. It's always upsetting to walk into an audition already knowing that you aren't going to be casted for the part. I tried to be hopeful auditioning for Grey's Anatomy but than again I didn't think people would believe me to be a successful neurosurgeon. After I was seated, the wait for my name to be called began.

It felt like years before a tall, blonde woman came out. "Are you Patrick Dempsey?" she asked. Considering I was the last guy in the room it kind of seemed like a ridiculous question but I decided to keep my sarcastic comments to myself, so I replied with "Yes I am it's nice to meet you" instead. "It's very nice to meet you I'm Betsy Beers. I'm helping with the auditions alongside Shonda Rhimes which as you probably know is the creator of this show."

I walked into a plain, medium sized room that had a few chairs and a long brown table in front of them. At the table sat a woman who I figured was Shonda Rhimes, and the lady, Betsy, sat down beside her. As they handed me a script I began reading some of the lines. The material seemed good for a show that was just starting off, but Shonda Rhimes made me feel uncomfortable. When I would look up she would be looking at me with an unreadable expression on her face. Fantastic I thought. I just started reading the script and she already hates me, there is no way I'm getting this part. Eventually she quit looking at me & told me she wanted me to do a quick chemistry test with Ellen Pompeo, the lead actress who had already been casted to play Meredith Grey. When I saw her is when I knew my life would forever be changed.

She came out wearing a black t-shirt, light blue jeans, & her hair was a perfect mixture of brown and blonde. When she stepped closer I could see that she had beautiful blueish- green eyes that you could easily be lost in & a gorgeous smile. We had instant chemistry, the kind of chemistry you can't fake, either you have it or you don't, and we definitely had it. That's one of the things that helped me get the part.

Who knew 10 years later my wife & mother of my children, Jillian, would file for divorce , I'd have to end the 9 year affair I've had with Ellen, & quit the show to try & save my marriage.

I never intended to have an affair with Ellen but between the long hours at work, hang outs in our trailers, & of course the scenes between Meredith & Derek, we developed such strong feelings for each other that we couldn't ignore. It started off with innocent kissing every once in a while but then somehow turned into sex. We knew it was wrong since we were both married to other people but we couldn't stop & eventually in January of this year my wife found out.

The separation between Jill & I has been rough on all three kids, Talula, Darby, & Sullivan. It's gotten to the point they would all three beg me to try & make things right with their mom so we can all be a family again. I never wanted my kids to be part of a broken family, as a parent you want nothing more than for them to be happy. And in order for them to be happy they wanted their family back together & I need to do everything in my power to give that to them. In order to do that I have to change my life, give up Ellen & the role of Derek Shepherd.

I know this chapter is probably crappy & short but this is my first fanfic & the next chapters will be a lot longer 👍🏽 5 comments before the next update please