i don't even want a "boyfriend" or "girlfriend" i want someone who i enjoy being around and i wanna adopt a dog with them and live in a studio apartment with a big bed and a netflix account and we can throw popcorn at each other and try and catch it in our mouths. and we can play tag at the laundry mat at 3am while we watch our clothes and i wanna play light tag with them and i wanna be able to smile around them without being conscious about my teeth. and i want to play at beaches with our dog, which will be named douglas, and i want to have little halloween parties with our obnoxious married couple friends and laugh about their wine stained teeth. and i want anniversaries where we go out to eat where we first met. and i want to have fun making dinner for them when they get home from working, and making them happy. and i want to take my sisters future kids out on adventures at the zoo, and have picnics with them and my so. and when we get old we can just sit on our porch and judge the youth and laugh and drink coffee together. and then well always make each other smile and ill tell them bad jokes just so i can see them smile. but then i just don't want any of that because i acknowledge the fact that we would do everything together except one day one of us will go to the others funeral alone and i don't think i could do that.
