My parents consider what Ms. Smith said about me seeing a psychiatrist. I have an appointment this morning. I'm not mad that my parents did this because honestly I couldn't imagine what it must've been like for them as parents to lose a child to suicide. I know they just want me to be okay, and that they're paranoid too.
I guess I shouldn't say that I have a psychiatrist appointment, because technically it's just a doctor's appointment to determine if I'm depressed to the extent that it's necessary I see a psychiatrist. It starts off with a nurse coming in asking me questions like, have you had thoughts of harming yourself? And, do you wear your seat belt? The seat belt one caught me off guard, but I guess I can see where they're coming from. The nurse eventually leaves and the doctor comes in, talking about depression and mostly about my situation. Eventually it's determined that I don't have to see a psychiatrist, and the doctor and I go out and talk to my parents and she tells them that it would be best if they kept an eye on me, and I regularly meet with my guidance counselor.
After my appointment mom drops me off at school. In art as we're listening to Mr. Howard talk about Rembrandt, Nicholas passes me a note.
Nicholas: Where were you this morning?
Me: Doctor's appointment.
Nicholas: Everything okay?
Me: Yeah, I'm fine. :) How are you?
Nicholas: Grand :D
Me: LOL you're a dork.
After I pass it back he smiles at me and we continue listening to Mr. Howard babble.
As Nicholas and I are walking home that night he asks me if I want to go to his house. I say,
"Sure, let me just make sure it's okay with my parents first."
He nods as I pull out my phone and call my mom. When she answers I say,
"Hi, I was wondering if I could go to Nicholas's?"
I can hear her smile through the phone as she says,
"Of course honey, be home by 9 alright?"
"Alright, bye mom."
I say as I hang up.
When we get to Nicholas's he leads me in and we go and sit on the couch. As we're watching TV he looks at me and asks,
"Hungry?"
I shake my head because honestly I'm not that hungry and as he gets up his phone falls out of his back pocket onto the couch. He doesn't realize and keeps heading to the kitchen. My eyes widen as I look at what's on the screen. DominantxSubmissivekinkporn.com and a video playing of a girl handcuffed bent over a table naked getting spanked by a guy, who is also naked. Nicholas returns when they start having sex and the girl starts moaning super loud.
"Shit!"
Nicholas says as he grabs his phone and quickly leaves the video. All I can do is blush.
"I'm sorry you had to see that..."
He says as he puts his phone back in his pocket and sits beside me. The rest of the night is just awkward silence as we watch TV. As Nicholas is walking me home he blurts,
"Emelia, I really don't want you to think I'm some sort of perv now."
He catches me off guard and I really can't think of what to say. He continues by saying,
"That's one of the reasons why Jeremy didn't like the idea of me liking you because he knew what kind of stuff I'm into..."
Nervously I ask,
"D-do you still like me?"
As Nicholas looks me in the eyes he says,
"Yeah... You're so fucking cute Emelia..."
As I blush we proceed the walk to my house. When we get to my front door as Nicholas is about to leave I say,
"Wait..."
as he turns around I walk up to him and kiss his cheek. Naturally I have to get on my tiptoes, and lower his head down, but it just felt so right. Surprised he asks,
"What was that for?"
"I like you too."
I say, looking up into his gorgeous hazel eyes as I turn around and go in the house, leaving Nicholas dumbfounded at the door.
