Elegantly Wasted

Chapter 3

Lunchtime. I entered the hall all the students sitting in their groups. You can see the popular girls and the popular guys at their various tables. I went to the dishing station and took salad and water out of the many options. I decided to go sit outside alone under a tree. Capturing the view with my eyesight. It was peaceful and it got me thinking.

Thinking:
Mother why do I feel like I'm alone all the time. I'm the one suffering and enduring the pain. Each morning and every second of the day I am thinking of you and what you possibly did. *voice crying* What did I do to deserve this. I can't even control my actions any more. Mother, I woke up early this other morning and I ate grapes in the room Aunty Laura let me sleep. As I was exiting the room she asked why I was eating in the room. I can't deal without you being here. Each imagining if you were here how would it be or what would I be doing. I went to the kitchen and washed my plate moments later I realised that I actually washed my own plate leaving the rest there. Mom it was by accident. Why does Aunty Laura dislike us ? Why us?

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The bell rang. I jumped and threw away my paper plate in the bin. Ran to class so that I will not be late. Some girl tripped me and laughed at me. Ashley. The schools bad girl. How could she.
"Listen hear baby girl. Leave Liam alone you are too poor for him. Look at you. Shame cheap thing." Ashley bent down to tell me with puppy dog eyes.
I decided not to react. She then with her team giggled as I left. I got to English, I sat right at the back of the class in the corner. Took out my secret diary. Writing down exactly what just happened to day.

"Good Afternoon Ladies and Gentleman"
Greeted Mr Dickson.
"Good Afternoon Mr Dickson." Replied the class in unison.

I sat down silently. He gave us a few tasks to do which were due next lesson.

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I got out the school meeting Jacob at the front driving the Black Porshe. I hopped in the front seat. I looked at him confirming that we can leave.

"Jacob, Where's Zack?"

He did not reply and continued to drive a few seconds later he came to a complete stop.

" Jacob, I need to go to the store and purchase a few goods including Oreo Ice cream. "

He smiled a bit on the mention of Oreo Ice cream. He reversed out on to the drive way leading to the super market. I got out to the car and entered the shop. I bought a packet of blades and a few other treats. I took the blades and placed them in my bag and the rest of the treats remained in the shopping bag. Got in the car and gave Jacob some Oreo Ice cream as we drove home. Go to my bedroom which was white. White walls and a gold head board. My bed was a King sized bed and had a large window which had a golden frame. My bedding was black with a gold throw. I locked the door behind me and switched on the TV. Watching Wags Miami. I wore a red lingerie and laid in the centre of the bed watching TV. It was very hot outside. I remembered that I bought blades. I took one out of my bag a cut three lines on my right arm near the shoulder. As the blood squirted out it felt like I was being released from the pain I felt. I cried a little and took a deep breath. I heard a knock.

"Yes" I replied.
"Zendaya open the door please!" Jacob Shouted.
"What do you want!"
"Zendaya please just open the door!"
"Fine I'm coming"

I went to my closet got dressed in a black lacy gown with my name in gold at the back. I covered my scar in a Gauze mat and Masking tape. I went to my door and opened. Leaning at my door frame is Jacob shirtless.
"Yes, What do you want?" I snap at him.
"Wow. Chillax a bit there sissy. Fine get to the point. Aunty Laura is going to a business trip for 2 months to Europe. "
"So what, It's not like she really cares about us" I roll my eyes and turn back to my bed.
"Why are you so hard on your self ? " He asks in a worried tone.
"It's nothing to worry about, may you excuse me because I have homework to do." I snap back.

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Yes I know deep down Ashley's words hurted me, yes they pieced deep down in my heart. It's not like I'm poor or anything so why is it hurting so much?
I may not want to show people that I come from a rich family but for how long will it last for? Oh Liam his a great guy but he must drop his ego. He is 6ft tall and has a tan Brazilian skin color. He is muscular. I'm I really falling for him. No I can't. 

"Zendaya there is a party at John's house. Are you coming ?"
I quickly nod my head back to Jacob. I lay my head on my pillow where darkness took over everything. Deep in sleep. I had a weird dream of me at a party wearing bum shorts and a crop top twerking. I then see in a distance Ashley angry with furious eyes. I smile at her flashing my boobs. She comes to me a slaps the shit out of me. I look at her and pull her hair. Where I then remembered I had a blade in my pocket and I cut her hair off and left at scar on her face. Blood dripping to the floor. I dropped everything and ran to the bathroom. Where Liam hugged squeezing my ass. I cried in his cradle.

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I woke up it was all a dream.