captured

have you ever felt like you cant do anything with the things youre feeling and thinking?
you might write it all down, but nothing will happen.
it starts to bother you because you cant do anything with them.
telling other people wont do, because you feel like no one will get what you mean.
they will say that they're here for you and they give you a hug.

being creative won't do as well, especially when you're a nobody, like me.
write it in a song, poem, or story. no one will listen to it or read it as you want them to.
and thats why you just stay quiet and let it be. in fear that they won't get what you mean
but slowly, its driving you insane.
not knowing how to express your feelings, or how to deal with everything.
figuring that out is really tiring, because you have to do it alone.
it's not that you dont want any help from others, its because you just do not have
any idea how to explain it to someone because you already know that
they will not understand it at all.
you just feel really lonely, staying up all night because you can't sleep.
anxious because you're scared of what people might think of you when you tell them whats been on you mind lately. scared of what their reaction might be.
which will make you stay quiet even more. 

and thats why im captured in my own thoughts and feelings. ive been keeping this to myself, so i have no idea if this is something people can relate to.
if it does, will you let me know?

- Laura