I wish I wasn't like this , I wish I didn't screw everything up. I especially wish I didn't screw it up with him. I always screw it up with boys whether we are friends or less or more, no that I know anything about the more part. But I have never liked someone like I liked him. I didn't mind that was weird or maybe not all his friends stayed with him, but of course when he actually started to talk to me I screwed it up. I have a tendency to that, I get to dramatic wanting them to care but it scares people away. Maybe its a sign that I will be alone forever, just stick to loving animals There is one person who listens to me but I think I might have screwed that up too.
I told this friend who it was how I felt I told him a lot about my life, but then he told someone else and I still trust him but I think I screwed it up. I want to talk to him more but I would feel really pathetic asking. I might just send him this but he will probably judge me but might as well screw it up with the only person who I like to talk to that listens right?
