It was 3 in the afternoon and i was sitting on my bed with my laptop scrolling through facebook when i saw a comment on my news feed. " Spencer your a whore and should go neck youself no one would care if you were dead." i sat on my bed reading it over and over again starting to cry i knew it was all true, but i have only slept with one boy and that was my ex boyfreind Toby. i went to the bathroom and locked the door i have been struggerling with depression for the last few months i went and opened the mirror capnet and pulled out my blades. One cut for being ugly 2 cuts for being a whore 3 cuts for being useless. i looked down at my arm it was bleeding really heavily but it didnt hurt i wanted to keep going but my mum was going to be home soon. i cleaned up the mess and put my jumper on. i heard the door open. " Spence i'm home can you get dinner on please sweetie"? Yes mum i will.
I walked down into the kitchen and saw mum " sorry Spence i need to pop out again to grab some milk but can you get the pasta on?' sure thing mum. "have you been crying Spencer i'm here if you want to talk you know". Yes mum i know and yes i have been crying because i fell over and hit my ankle on my bed. "well hope it will be fine i will be back in 1/2 hour". While mum was out of the house i ran up to my room and slammed the door, my arm was stinging like mad it hurt i lifted up my sleeve on my jumper the blood made my arm a mess i only had 10mins or so to clean up porperly this time. i jumped into the shower but the temptation of the razor blade got to me to picked it up and cut my thighs. "Oh Shit what am i doing i need to be cleaning myself not making it worse and mum will be home soon ahh". i quickly jumped out and cleaned myself up and put my pjs on. ran down into the kitch and put a pan and the pasta on just in time for mum to come home.
how was this ??
please tell me :)
