a/n: nochang is a very unique artist and every single one of you should love him and appreciate him
just the two of you, music resonates throughout the room, him holding you tight, swaying back and forth, it was peaceful, and right now you couldn't be any happier.
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he was your best friend, he knew every thing about you, from your secrets to the little things you say or do. to say you were madly in love with each other was an understatement. spending time every minute of the day with him would never bore you, as it was a necessity. you were fascinated in him the same amount he was fascinated in you.
from his little pecks on your hand to the tangling of bodies under the covers you two were inseparable. the connection, unbreakable, to imagine it ever breaking was something you or him never wanted to think of.
he needed you badly, you stabilize him, you get rid of all the negative thoughts, you push him to be the successful man he is today. without you, he would be stuck in a bad place, a very bad place. he had others to rely on, but you would never leave him, he knew how much effort and pain you always went through getting him out of his bad place.
you loved him, everything about him, to see him the slightest bit upset tore your heart apart. he deserved nothing but happiness. to know that you are the one for him, the only one, filled your heart with joy. he made you smile so wide, he made you proud of his work, he no matter what tried his best to make you happy. you knew everything about his mental health, and the struggles he went through everyday. it was not only hard on him, but on you to seeing him upset and him pushing you away creates a sadness you hate facing so often. when he hides from you, when he avoids you, you can only imagine the pain he is enduring. his mind locks him in a dark, dark place and you want to help, you want to help so bad, but he is not trying to upset you, thats the last thing he wants to do.
he can't handle himself when he is locked up and he wants you so bad to be there, to hold him, to tell him you love him, but his mind won't let him. his mind wants him to suffer, he continuously is in a battle between him and his head and he wins in the end, he is afraid of the day he won't win. he thinks of your face begging to talk to him, to be there for him, oh how bad he wants that but he ignores. he wishes everyday that he wasn't like this. he doesn't want to be in constant pain, you radiate happiness that gets him through the day, for you he is so thankful.
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the music continues to play, and you never want to leave his side. others may see him as incapable, but to you he is the strongest and the most capable person you've ever met. he gives you strength, and the idea that you can persevere through the roughest times no matter what's in your way.
he kisses the top of your head, you hold him tighter, you will never let him go.
