My Dear Death

My Dear Death:

There are many things for which I hate you. I hate you for taking my grandfather in your arms to give him the peace that I never could. I hate you for lifting the responsibility off his shoulders. I hate you for your selfless act of kindness. I hate you for bringing peace to those I love. I hate you for not discriminating. I hate you for the pain you have caused me. I hate you for the trusting children that take your hand. I hate you for the fact that you are unexpectedly expected.

I hate that I think of you whenever I am afraid. I hate that you chose the most beautiful flowers in this garden. I hate that you don't take us all at once. You take us one by one. I hate the fact that I fear you. I hate the fact that I don't know what you hide. I hate that the mystery that surrounds you makes others search to discover them. I hate that I don't know your face.

I hate that you are waiting to take me against my will. I am in love with my husband, life, and you dare to wish to take me away from him. I know that I will end up with you. I know that life will one day be tired of fighting for me and will let me go. I just want you to know one thing, Life may not always treat me right but I know him well enough to love him and wish to stay by his side. My body will betray me because of your skillful friend called time. Your friend may make life seem boring, bad, tedious, a cheater, exhausting and tiring. But he can never make me unlove him. I love his imperfect perfections.

Life is your brother and he gives you all the loves of his lives but you are so selfish that you take them forever. You make life seem unfair. You let life take the blame. I hate the fact that I don't know why you do all of this. I want to ask you something. Wait for me more. Let me experience love in the many faces that life has. Allow me to be a faithful wife by not thinking of you until the day comes. Let me go for now. If you love me like you claim let me be happy. Allow me to get lost in all of the emotions that make me human. I won't blame your friend if he makes everything go faster but do not come and get me before I am prepared. If you let me live my llif, enjoy my husband even if he makes me cry or makes me yell, and let me have a happy marriage, I promise that I will run to your arms without regrets when your friend tells me is the right moment. Relieve the pain of those who suffer by taking them with you and do not worry about me. I will see you take my loved ones but I know that one day you'll let me see them.

Thank you for waiting patiently. Thank you for your acts of kindness. I am happy now and I also know that one day you'll make me your wife and I'll love you then.

With all the hate I can gather,
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our future wife,

Hiramys Cruz