What happens when you can feel your heart making its way up your throat?
When you find out that your "friends" hate you?
I mean, I've been expecting it for a while but, to actually hear it is crushing. Only one thing to do now... I truly hope that I can actually feel something. I'm so numb inside, I wish I would just die already but, I can't do it well, not yet anyway.
I wish it were easier to sleep on a pillow that's soaked from your own tears but I guess it's just not meant to be.
I promised myself that I wouldn't do this again, I wasn't going to cut everyone out of my life but, once a loner, always a loner. I just don't deserve friends.
