Empty Shell

Chapter 1

 

Chapter I- The Bitter Ending

 

     Tears roll down my cheeks as he walks away. I was left standing there in the middle of a stormy night because of a mistake I don’t want to admit till then. Two hours had passed by and I am still there. Those tears are still pouring, I am not sure if I am waiting for him to come back or I just can’t make my feet carry me to a shelter like my heart is shouting at me but I think my brain can’t read the signal it was sending through my nerve. A hard wind blows and a strike of lightning flashes in the sky. The rain is pouring even harder. I look up in the sky and the final drop of my tear slid down and I make my way home.

     When I arrive at home, the lights are out and there is no sign of anyone in there. I opened the front gate and see if the door is unlocked. I push it open and silence greeted me. I almost forgot they died the same time he left. I am alone and no one will care for me now.

     My heart is like a shell empty but there. It was never been filled ever since that day. I never thought I survived, I sometimes cursed God why does he did those things to me but I regretted it later and think that there is a reason behind all of those things.

     It became my routine to wake up at five in the morning to get ready for school, attend class, eat lunch, attend class, go home, and cook dinner and then sleep. During weekends, I just stared either at the door or at the window as if I am waiting for someone. I don’t have any friends. Music and sorrow is my everyday company. Tears doesn’t roll down my cheeks anymore, they dried out I think.

     Then one day I heard something weird playing on my iPod full of lonely songs is Simple Plan- I’m Just a Kid. I knew it because I used to love this song since I can relate to its meaning. I listened intently letting the meaning of the song get through my system even once in a while.

 

I woke up it was 7

Waited till 11

Just to figure out that no one would call

I think I got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them

What's another night all alone?

When your spending everyday on your own

And here it goes

 

     Where did they go anyway? I am waiting for them. Didn’t they know?

 

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare

I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair

Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is

Having more fun than me

 

     The song can truly tells how I am right now a kid alone. I heard a knock on the door; I didn’t move even a little fraction to where I was at that time because I thought it was just my imagination running wild. Another one this time it is louder. I get up, open it and was shock, my mouth hanging a little and I can’t tear my eyes away.

     Standing there is him still looking handsome after a year of our separation. I want to shut the door down because one thing after he busted me, he flirted every girl in school his eyes laid on and he never talk to me ever. My mind told me that this is just a dream but my heart always a contrast, told me it is real.

     Before I can utter a single word he hugs me real tight. I don’t know why but I can feel that emotions are filling my empty shell again and I can’t help but smile even after everything I felt in the past.