In His Arms[boyxboy]

Chapter 12

Chapter 12 

The Boy Who Breaks 

Oh my God, this isn't fair. Everytime, I go near Joshua and Taylor, Taylor fucking eats Joshua's face off. Apparently, if I'm around, Taylor has to make me jealous and make out with Joshua, who completely ignores me. I can't take it. My heart aches so much right now. 

"Shaney, don't pay any attention to them. Taylor's just being a poohead and trying to make you hurt," Alexander says as he rubs my back. 

"I-it hurts..." I clenched my chest, trying to hold in any tears. Hey, I may be a cry baby, but can you blame me? I have to sit and watch as the guy I've totally fallen for makes out with someone else, while completely ignoring me. He acts like I don't exist. The knot in my stomach comes back, making me feel utterly nauseous. 

"Shaney..."  

"Yo! Alexander, come here for a minute!" Taylor shouts over to us. Alexander gapes at him like he's psycho and the turns towards me, completely ignoring him. 

"HEY! Alexander, get your ass over here!" 

"Alexander, you better get over here now!" 

"God, shut the hell up, Taylor! Obviously, he's ignoring you for a reason!" I yell back at him, pissed off. Alexander gapes at me. I glance at him, and then quickly look away, sulking. I don't feel like myself lately. 

I get up from the table, walking away mumbling, "I need air." 

"Should I come with you?" I turn around and see him looking nervously at me, worried. 

"No, I'd rather be alone, please," I continue walking out of the cafeteria. 

I walk pass the lake, passing Sam, and drag myself towards the woods. I don't know where I'm going, but I just need to get away. This camp is starting to feel more like a prison. I pass Steven and Alex as I enter into the wooded area. This place will definitely help me escape for a few hours. 

I sit down and lean up against a tree, closing my eyes. I don't want to think. All I think about is him and how serious he was the other day. I keep replaying what he said over and over again. 

"...I don't want to be with you, Shane. I was just using you and now that I've had you, I don't want you anymore."  

Haha, oh God. Why is that so believable? Why does that kind of thing just fit him? Ah, Taylor is laughing so much at me right now. He's getting his way. Oh, that bastard! Poor Alexander. 

What if we just steal Joshua back? 

We can't do that. Taylor will get Alexander. 

So, then we tell Sam about this. 

Sam will just kill Taylor. 

He'd be out of the picture. 

Sam would be in jail and Alexander would still be crushed. 

Why are you so difficult? I think it's a great idea.  

What's so great about it? 

We could get Joshua to help keep Sam at bay. 

That's true. 

Then it's settled. Go tell Sam now. 

Ha, I knew you were kind of smart, brain. 

Yeah, of course I am. 

I stand up, feeling a little better after having a conversation with myself. I'm going to get Joshua back and keep Alexander safe! This is going to work! I trudge through the woods, until I find the entrance to it, staring out at the opening to see Joshua standing there. My heart stops, but then begins to pound hard in my chest. It seems so loud, I'm sure he could hear it. Why is he here?