HELGA
"You know what? I hate you. I HATE you! You said you'd try di'ba? Sabi mo tulungan kitang kalimutan siya. I did everything! I guess you didn't try hard enough. Sana sinabi mo na lang sa'kin dati na tama na. Sana sinabi mo na hindi mo siya makakayang kalimutan. Kasi umasa ko e.. umasa ko. Sana hindi kita natutunang mahalin. Sana hindi ako nasasaktan ngayon ng ganito. You're so unfair." Hindi niya na napigilan ang bugso ng damdamin niya. She felt cheated!
"I said I will try, hindi ko naman sinabi na kakalimutan ko siya."
What the hell??
"Hah. So kasalanan ko pa ngayon? Kasalanan ko pa?"
"Helga, I hope you understad. This is Anya." He said with pleading eyes. Kasuka-suka. Sobrang nakakasuka!
"Right. She is Anya and I am JUST Helga. Ano pa bang magagawa ko? Anong laban ko sa ka-PERFECTan niya? I rest my case. Walang use para makipaglaban kasi alam naman natin na talo na ko. You already chose her, a long time ago."
ANDREW
"I'm sorry if I lead you on. I hope we could still be friends." I said trying to calm her down. I know that i hurt her but the last thing that I would want to happen is to loose her.
"Friends? That's bullshit Andrew! There is no way we could ever be friends again. I don't even want to see your face." I can tell that she's trying so hard to look brave but I can feel her defenses going down kaya hindi na lang ako nagsalita.
"So there, goodbye. THANK YOU for everything. Sana maging masaya kayo."
"Helga..."
The next minute, she's gone. *Sigh* I feel so bad for treating her that way but what can I do? This is my second chance. Ayokong mawala ulit si Anya dahil mahal ko siya. And perhaps this time magwowork na. I hope someday magkausap kami ng maayos ni Helga. I didn't really plan to hurt her, I did try. Yung isang part ko gustong magmove on pero ayokong pakawalan yung second chance na ibinigay sa'kin. This is my last shot to happiness. 'bakit hindi ko ba magiging masaya kung pipiliin mo si Helga?' of course I'll be happy pero hindi ko kayang mabuhay kung punong-puno ng what if's ang utak ko. 'that's why you chose to hurt her. Sa tingin mo ba makakaya mong mabuhay kung wala siya?' of course i can live without her.. I look at the four corners of my room and at the other places of my house. I don't know why but eveything seems empty without her.
Can I REALLY live withour her?
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HELGA
I couldn't cry. I was so mad na hindi ko magawang umiyak. Bakit ba sobrang unfair ng buhay? Nung una nagparaya ako, ako pa rin ang nasaktan. Ngayon naman lumaban ako pero ang ending ako pa din ang luhaan. Hindi ba talaga para sa'kin ang pag-ibig? Bwiset. Ang malas- malas ko naman.
"Helgs!" Bati ng best friend kong si Kara when I answered the phone.
"Well, Hello Kara." I said trying so hard to fight back the tears.
"I heard about what happened..are you okay?" she said, full of concern.
"Of course I'm okay. Ano ka ba naman! I am Helga. Nothing and no one will bring me down."
"I'm so sorry Helgs..i didn't know that this would happen. I didn't expect my Kuya to find his happiness at your expense..i mean you know that I don't like that Anya right? Kahit sina Mommy--"
"Kara. Don't you think you're being unfair to Anya? Hindi mo pa naman siya kilala. Don't judge her just because I am your bestfriend. Okay lang naman ako e. Tanggap ko na na hindi si Andrew ang happiness ko. Of course I'm hurting, hindi ko idedeny yun but I will move on. Hindi naman pwedeng habang buhay akong masasaktan. Perhaps, hindi lang talaga siya si The One. And we're not really meant for each other. Ganun lang naman ka-simple yun diba? Remember our goal? Maging masaya si Andrew. Kung si Anya yung makakapagpasaya sa kanya. Maging masaya na rin tayo. At ako..well maybe there someone else out there. And I'll find him. One of these days.."
"Pero kasi.. hay naku. Ang tanga-tanga kasi ni Kuya!"
"C'mon Kara."
"Okay fine. I'll give her a chance. Just because. Pero promise me, if ever you need me, just call."
"Of course."
Haaaay...bakit ba ang saklap ng buhay ko?
