Aaidah 'n' Pherlys

chapter five and six

*Chapter 5 & 6                    Aaidah 'n' pherlys*

    *By Fauziyya M Farouk and Fatima L Gana*

After the continous movement, we reached a parlour that was at the end of the corridor. Just next to yasir's room. My heart skipped a beat as I saw yasir standing by the window. He was faced back..... I remembered The parlour... it had in it the days we played around..... yasir habiba and me..... so fun..... I had this smile plastered all over my face adoring the large parlour as nothing had changed one bit..... we played hide and seek and many more games during weekends when maama drop me off...... but at the nd of the day, aunt hajara's voice would be heard and as usual, scolding.

I had gone very deep in my thoughts until suddenly, amals cute tiny voice brought me back to reality "Tada!!!! Delivered!" She shouted making yasir turn fixing his gaze on me making me feel pretty uncomfortable. And now my heart wouldn't stop beating..... "now where's our pay?!" Ahil asked as they both stretched their hands... I stood amused by how they played the role of the delivery guys....."here you go   thank you" yasir replied handing them two London dairy chocolate.....

'ya illahi! His voice!! His voice!' I thought 'oh no Aaidah! What's happening to you not now.... be calm' my conscience spoke and I became more confused now than ever. I couldn't get what was happening to me...  "good luck yaya!'' They said in unison before running off. "Hey" he said. I had this strange  goosebumps all over. 'Aaidah!! Be calm and remember don't panic he's family' my conscience spoke "hy" I managed to blurt out more to my self than to him.

There was minutes of silence before he finally started talking. "How 're you? And the pherlys world? He chuckled and I smiled "Alhamdulillah" I replied..... "and you?" I asked "am fine Alhamdulillah" he said "you haven't aged a bit" he added and I let out a low chuckle.... "you really think so? Maybe I can say so for you but no" I replied and he laughed. So cute. "Yeah..... I missed those days... I missed you" he stated and I stared blindly at him..  "I missed you too yaya" I replied noticing his mood. It changed..... "yaya?'' He asked surprised "you can just say my name you know" he said......"uhh well ok" I mumbled " tell me something, am I different from before? I can't help but notice your mood like am irritating you or something... like your uncomfortable around me... Aaidah, I'm still me ....yasir.... so please feel free" he stated " I'm sorry it's not that it's just..... never mind, so tell me about school" I replied. He wanted to say something but I guess maybe for Aaidah's sake, he was quiet. I could tell he was hurt..... oh my! Don't blame me, blame my so called heart... I'm sorry but I can't help it...... "ya Allah help me" I thought.

"Here I got this for you..... its a welcome back something..... for you" I stated handing him the brown paper bag. "Oh... you shouldn't have bothered..... I missed this actually..... you know, the gifts and so on. Anyway thanks it means a lot another New memory..... Happy welcome back memory number one, my future in sha Allah" he said smiling and I chuckled.

"Well look here, I got this for you too" he said walking towards the drawer in front pulling out a thin  trangular wooden box. ".......And this is for you" he stated emphasizing the word 'you'. I couldn't help but smile.... he still got me a present...... "Ain't he so sweet?!" I thought "what's this?" I asked staring at the box and then to him "open it" he said. I hesitantly opened the box to find this silver bracelet that had multiple alphabets. The coloured ones were "A &Y"..... it was so adorable. "AYF?" I gasped "yeah Aaidah & yasir...." he replied bluntly "there's no "H" I said and he stopped smiling "seriously? What do I have to do Aaidah? You always include her in our conversation.... can't you see? I want this to be the "us, we" thing just the two of us...... I don't want to be stuck in the friends zone Aaidah please" he said with alot depression in his voice. Like he was going to break down "excuse me... they might be looking for us now" he stated and walked out leaving me speechless.......

I collapsed onto the nearest couch calming my face.... I was hurt too. Sorry I forgot to mention earlier, yasir's short tempered..... but this time I really can't blame him. I feel like a bad person right now. Maybe this isn't what Allah has chosen for me.... for us maybe...." I thought for some time before leaving the parlour.

        I went down to the garden to help out in setting the dish on the table. I saw yasir on the way but surprisingly, he ignored me and walked pass by. Nothing made my heart ache than that. Maybe my heart is telling me to go for it, but deep down I'm scared like crazy. Ya Allah you've chosen this as a test for me, Ya Allah help me through......

        At about 8:30, we were all set down at the table. I sat down next to maama and by my other side was habiba. Yasir sat opposite me but his face never met mine.... Baaba recited the prayers before we started eating. At the first moment it was silent not until baaba spoke "so yasir how's school?"  "It's Fine Alhamdulillah uncle" he replied " that's good to hear Allah's guidance "  baaba said "Ameen" yasir and others replied. "Yaya! So how did it go?!" Amal asked whiles munching on her spaghetti... "oh no kids of nowadays...." I thought "oh what? Oh you mean the football match?" Yasir asked trying to cover up the whole mess Amal started. " There was no football match.... don't tell me you've forgotten already" Amal said and the rest looked confused staring at one another. "Yes there is ... don't mind Amal yaya, she forgets too easily...... now amal try to remember the football match?" Ahil chirped in staring at amal and signalling her something I couldn't actually read. "Ahhh yeah now I get it... but yaya I hope you didn't lose again remember, if you lose, we get one chocolate bar each" Amal stated and I chuckled  they were amazing, so full of life. "Yeah I never lose fighting!!" Yasir replied... "umm yasir, what football match?" Aunt hajara asked puzzled "mama you dont need to know it's man to man thing" Ahil replied before yasir could speak and we all laughed "really?" Habiba asked "uhm" he nodded drinking from his glass...... "Yaya? Are we missing out on something?" Habiba asked "Yeah well you know,....... " was all yasir could say.

       After dinner, we bid our goodbyes and left the house. In some way, my night was awesome but in the other, it was hurting. I destroyed one's  night........

"..........dear diary, it's been a long day and a memorable one indeed. My  right was awesome cool amazing in fact, no words can describe this very blissful day. I feel happy for how my life is going, for Habiba and Aiman, for the twins, for yasir....... for many other things and with that, Another thanks to Allah...... I'm grateful.
    But then today, I did something I know I shouldn't..... my heart said I'm terrible, my brains are not working.... I means it's actually not working as at the moment.....my mind said i'm wrong..... my conscience said I was harsh...... I'm so confused and I don't really know what to do...... I pray Allah help me out on this." I closed it and lay down still thinking.

        "Aaidah dear? Are you sleeping?" I heard my mum asking from outside "come in" I replied and she was in. I sat upright and stared at her. She knew I was troubled who wouldn't notice? " 're you ok?" She asked. " I treated friend in a way that he shouldn't be treated. And now I guess he's mad at me or something .... I don't really know what to do." I said "and what you did do you think if someone were to do it to you, will you be happy or sad?" She asked " maama, I actually don't know" I replied "does this have anything to do with yasir?" She asked and I hesitated. ".......... yes".... "Aaidah, do what you think is right. Your an adult now, you know what's best for you. I won't be here for you every now and then. I can't make decisions for you against your will. I'll only choose what's right for you and pray Allah's guidance is always with you. But this I must tell you, go for what you think is best" she said and I nodded. "Thanks maama this means a lot" I stated and embraced her in a hug.

"Get some sleep.....goodnight" she said standing up "good night Maama" I replied. She switched off my side lamp before leaving my room. I recited my night duas before drifting off to sleep.