Despair
Being left alone with only my thoughts
My feelings are down and I am caught
Up on emotions I usually hold in
I want to scream, cry and commit a sin
I’m frustrated, anxious, angry and depressed
I hurt myself to get rid of the stress
Immediately the pain washes away
The hurtful reflections held at bay
Physical agony is easier to bear
It takes over the thoughts I don’t want to share
I know it won’t last, my despair will return
I had promised I would stop, I feel it burn
It will leave a scar the hurt for now, gone
It becomes a badge to wear and I’ll try to be strong
As I look at the wound, guilt now takes me
Shame of a broken agreement, I want no one to see
