Jerrie // Falling Around You [Book 3]

13 | She's My Weakness

Right after Perrie, Claudmiar and a few friends arrived at the club and got inside Perrie went straight to the bar. She ordered a cocktail. Something with whisky in it. Perrie actually just ordered something that was really strong, she didn't matter what was in it. "She Don't Love Me" by Zayn was playing and Perrie rolled her eyes. This was a club to dance, not to fell into self-pity. Although, she was glad that Zayn's music was played in clubs. What she didn't like was that the song literally spoke to her. I think I know she don't love me, that's why I fuck around. Perrie shook her head and looked around the club. She tried to find any cute guys, or girls. When she found a cute guy on the dancefloor, she put her drink on the counter and went up to him. The moment he saw her, a little smirk spread across his face. That gave Perrie the answer she was hoping for. Approved. The blonde started to dance close to the light haired guy and she noticed how she slowly went into her little bubble. The one where she was all alone and no one could bother her, not even Jade. Perrie was in her own world. She started to drink more and more from time to time and got more drunk from time to time. Perrie had a lot of fun.

Later on she went back to Claudimar and the others. She decided not to take Zac, that was the guys name, home with her, since he just wasn't attractive to her enough and it also seemed like he was looking for something serious, which Perrie obviously wasn't.

"Pez, drink this.", Claudimar smiled and handed Perrie a glass of some weird mixed up shake.

"What is this?", Perrie murmured. She took the glass and took a sip of it. It taste good, but she knew there was something else in it which clearly wasn't alcohol, which is why she handed it back to Claudimar. She loved partying hard, but she'd never take drugs. It didn't matter how heartbroken she was and how much she hated her actual life right now, she'd never go this far. Alcohol and hook ups. That was her thing. But drugs? Hell no.

"You don't like it?", he asked while taking a sip of it.

"Well, I'm no drug addict, so no.", Perrie said cold and went back to the bar to get a new drink. She sat down at the bar, waiting for the barkeeper to appear. Perrie didn't really pay attention to the people around her. All she noticed was that she saw a couple going to the dancefloor. Though, she had no idea who it was or why no-single people would go into a club like this. 

After she got her drink, she stayed at the bar for awhile, looking through the club again. Zac, the guy from earlier, smiled at Perrie as he saw her on the other side of the club. Perrie smiled back, but she was clearly annoyed that he thought she was a keeper. 'Cause she wasn't. At least, that's what she thought. First, her and Zayn, then her and Jade. The only relationship she could keep alive was her and Selena's, and that one was fake. Also, Perrie wasn't looking for a relationship, but for fun, which is why Zac annoyed her even more. 

When Perrie's eyes caught a brunette girl on the other side of the bar, a smirk appeared on her face. She couldn't see the brunette's face, but her back already looked really hot and Perrie could imagine herself on top of her. That may sounded really dirty, but it was the truth. Perrie bit her bottom lip as she saw the brunette's bum. The brunette stood up to go to the toilet. That was the perfect moment for Perrie to make a move. The blonde, - who was now pink, but let's be honest, we'd all call her 'the blonde' even if her hair would turn blue, - slowly followed the brunette to the toilets. She waited until the brunette got into the toilet. Perrie was waiting by the sinks. Since no one was here except her and the stranger, it was perfect. The brunette got out and made her way to the sinks. Perrie still couldn't see her face, but that didn't really bother her. She was too busy looking at the girl's bum.

 "Is there a cellphone in your backpocket? Cause that ass is so calling me!", Perrie smirked. She usually didn't use pick-up lines that often, but she really wanted to use this one for a while now and see if it worked.

The brunette flinched for a second. You could see how confused Perrie was, but the moment the brunette turned around, her eyes widened in shock. Perrie could pinch herself right now. Jade, her ex-girlfriend Jade, the one who hated her now and was in love with someone else Jade, was in front of her and Perrie couldn't keep her eyes off of her. Everything was coming back. Perrie didn't want to let it out, which is why it felt like a volcano exploding in her body. 

"Perrie?", Jade asked quietly. The brunette came one step closer, which made Perrie flinch for a second. Perrie took a step back. Her face turned into a mix of anger and sadness. She really tried not to let the tears fall. "Are you okay? What's up with the pink hair and.." Jade looked at Perrie from the top to the bottom, "These clothes."

"Oh, you're talking to me now? Sorry, not interested.", Perrie said cold. "I actually thought you'd be someone else. Excuse me, I need to get someone to hook up with."

Perrie wanted to get out, but Jade stopped her by stepping in front of her. "What happened to you?"

"You happened, now let me go, you useless time-use.", Perrie snapped and dragged herself out of the room. Jade was shocked, like really shocked. Perrie sounded so different. And she acted different too. What Perrie said hurt Jade, a lot. But a part of her knew it was a dumb idea to try and talk to her when she was actually the one who partly messed this up.

Perrie went back to Claudimar and the others and told them she'd go home now because she was really tired. "No hook up tonight?", Claudimar asked surprised.

"Not in the mood today. See you soon.", Perrie smiled at them one last time before she went home. She was just really glad about the fact that she only saw Jade and no Heather. Perrie could cope with Jade, but not with Heather. It would have escalated easily if the dark-haired girl would have been there too.

When Perrie arrived at home, the first thing she did was cry. It all was starting to come back, but she couldn't let anyone know about this. She didn't want to be weak. But Jade was her weakness. She was her weakness and as long as Perrie would be a part of Jade's, Leigh's, Jesy's or Zayn's life, she knew she was never going to escape her weakness. She would always see Jade somewhere. They could meet in the mall, or in a club, like today, and Perrie would have a breakdown all over again. She just wanted to disappear. Perrie just wanted to get out of here.

Perrie took out her phone and called her management. After the phone rang a few times, her manager finally took the call:"Perrie, what's up? It's in the middle of the night!"

"I-I need to talk to you. We-We have to.. Discuss something."

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A/N

What do you think will they discuss? Also, I might need to mention that Jade is going to find something in the next chapter that will let you guys go "NO MY JERRIE :(" <- At least I hope so, hahaha. I really enjoyed writing this chapter. Jerrie is so not over yet, guys. ;)