12:00
my eyes start to close I can't bear to stay in this chilling evening aaanylonger so I await morning .
10:00
I awake by church bells ringing ,and the sound of happy families strolling up the cobbled path....happy families.oh how I envy them.
oh how I envy them so much
so much
smiling and cheery
full bellies
warm and loved
........................
were is she ,
the wonder of my life
all I think about
every day
jasmine .
and I know what you're thinking the wonder of my life is not my next rose of cocaine pfff
is she safe,oh I would give anything to just know how she is getting on,were she lives,is she battling this world alone?
*sob*
oh but I have my ways to get on I block these painful things out of my mind and battle on through these rough days of doubt I know there is always light at the end if the tunnel.I was right I know my luck was about to change my new hope would be waiting around the corner ,I just knew it!
the 'food4u ' lorry came flying around the corner asif it was riddled with ants ....I suppose the burgers are a bit crunchy.....uh oH :\
wow that was quick I didn't mean it literally but hey ho!
Daniel rosse the bit in sixth form ...the boy who wrecked my life ,your probably wondering were he is now or what happened to him ; I murdered him.
I'm joking ahah
oh no much worse to be honest he ran off and lest me at 8 months preg
he was scared that's all however he did pay his price when he was later murdered for identity fraud: he couldn't bear to live with him self anymore so he tried to restart his life and start all over again......as a pilot..... to be more specific it was someone else's identity but who cares when you get paid!
so I guess I'm sitting here next to the twisted elm tree that looks like it has been here for thousands of years.the leaves whip around me brushing there shrivelled discoloured bodies over my arms and feet.
I'm waiting for the cue to go down for my crappy scraps of a meal.
I waltz over to the van everyday the same my life is like a repeat seriously
but then again I should just be thankful that I am getting food I suppose .
