I lay in bed, thinking. Wondering.
How.
I miss you.
But I can't show it.
I love you.
But I'm afraid.
I never get the courage to tell you.
That I'm afraid..
he'll take you from me.
That I'm only here.
We talk every night.
Before we sleep.
And it makes me forget the pain.
But as soon as I'm alone..
all my worries are back..
I leave you peacefully asleep.
Not gonna bother you.
You work your ass off to get the stuff you need.
I fell in love you.
I messed up..
by leaving you..
then when I did.
You were taken.
By a person who makes you happy.
I live with the fact, I have to be jealous.
I can't help but cry.
Not knowing.
If you will choose him.
He makes you smile..
He makes you laugh..
He makes post about how beautiful you are, and lucky he is.
I miss being the one who did that.
I'm in love with someone.
I'm in love..
but can't fight.
My body is too weak.
I have no strength.
I cry..
softly.
Hard,
Yet ..
quietly.
How can I tell you.?
That I need you to pick me..
I fell in love with you.
I only trust you..
with my heart.
With the thought of living with someone.
I asked you to marry..
______, Will you marry?
You say yes,
The joy in my body.
Don't leave.
Love me forever..
I will wait.
Till you see I'm here truly for you.
I love you.
I wake up.
To see.
Everything was a dream.
You are mine, and only mine.
And everyone knows it.
~ Alexandria ;-;
