i am guilty guilty
i crushed it down and i ruined
i ruined somebody
it's not my fault i lie i lie
just because somebody ruined me first
of course i'm allowed to kill everyone else
i jet washed the inside of my brain
he still clings to the edges of my mind
everything i do
he is control
i kicked i cried
door slam fingers dig
big hands big mind big voice
i tried to be fine
now i try to be ruined
i'm so pretty when i cry
i can control the world
i am god, i realise
everybody is nothing
i am nothing i am their everything
DID HE
I DONT KNOW
DREAMS DREAMS NIGHTMARES STICKY
I WISH I COULD CRUSH IT
i smell like damp earth and paint and sweat and sugar
he is sour milk and black pepper shampoo
i cant smell the vomit but He Is Vomit
i don't forgive you
i dont
i don't hate you either
