True Love

Is Love Alive??

It's seven o'clock and I've to get up for school. I stay in bed just for a few minutes. When I'm fully awake I go to the bathroom to have a bath, brush my teeth etc. It's now eight o'clock and I'm fully dressed in my uniform. I spend fifteen minutes plastering myself in makeup as my mam says. I'm not one of those girls that put on makeup everyday to school only when I'm feeling ugly. I wore makeup yesterday and was too lazy to clean it off so I look like a zombie today my mascara is all over my face. I tried to scrub it off in the shower but it didn't work because it's water proof. 

I'm now downstairs I smell something so nice it's pancakes my favourite. "Morning mam ugh you look awful" I greet my mam. "Morning to you too" my mam said laughing. "Mason didn't let you get some sleep?" I said.  " He didn't leave anyone get any sleep last night" Sasha says giving my mam a kiss. "I slept perfectly last night" I said. Sasha just rolled her eyes at me and I smiled. I eat up so does Sasha we give my mam and dad a goodbye kiss and head out the door. 

Sasha sat with Jessica and Abigail her besties. I sat on my own and Neil sat next to me few minutes after. "Scraic Sammie" he said. "I just smiled at him" since I and Bethany had a fight over him I don't know why but I'm pissed at him. "Hey don't give me that we need to talk anyways" Neil said. "I'm listening" I said "Okay so I don't want out thing anymore I've feelings for someone else I'm sorry" Neil said. My heart dropped it felt like I was chocking. "Wait your ending our thing on a fucking bus you call it a thing swear Bethany was right I've never felt this way about anyone like I did for you I did you right never did I do you wrong and this is what I get back thank you Neil thank you very much. I then started to cry and everyone was looking at me I'm so embarrassed.All Neil could say is " we can still be friends". That sentence made me loose my temper like I was raging. "Friends? your outta your fucking mind I loved you so for two full years our relationship was a scam I bet you and your foolish friends were laughing at me thinking I'm a fool yous probably planned it all out. Thank God you showed your ass and I,I saw the real you Thank God you blew it I thank God I dodged the bullet I'm so over you so baby good luck in life. 

Just when I finished my rant and I legged it to the bathroom. Bethany followed after me but I just couldn't deal  help it. I fell to the flour and cried and cried. Bethany stroked my hair and said"everything is gonna be alright". It felt like hours that I've been in the bathroom but was minutes the warning bell rang and I had to go get my books. I cleaned my face and powdered it. I walked down to my locker and people were staring I don't need anyones sympathy. I had geography and I can't be late or Mr.stapleton will eat me. plus Neil's in my class just what I needed. "Right boys and girls you've already known about this for a few weeks now that we're meant to do a project so go pick your partners before I change my mind" Mr. Staplton said. I honestly didn't want to talk to anyone so I just stayed in my seat. Jamie came over to me. He's in all my classes hes so nice we talked a few time. "Hey Sam wanna be my partner?" Jamie said. "Ehm I don't exactly have people lining up to be my partner so yeah why not" I smiled. The bell rang and Jamie walked with me to the my Spanish class. He knew about what happened this morning but he didn't talk about it or felt sorry for me. He acted normal I wish everyone would act like that. 

school went on by so slow I decided to walk home. I couldn't handle going on the bus again. I got home and the house is spotless but all I can hear is mason crying and I see my mam trying to put him asleep. I don't have that much homework so I shout a hello to my mama and run upstairs to get dressed. I wore a crop top with high waisted jeans and a pair of superstars. I got Masons bag ready food,nappies,toys,blanket,dummy etc. I go to the car to get the pram and open it up. "Mam I'll take Mason out for a bit while you make dinner and get some sleep right" I said. " Ohh your an angel thanks sweetie" mam said. "We're gonna have some bonding time yeah yeah" I said to Mason.

I went to the lake it's my favourite place to go when I needed to think. I think it was Mason's feeding time so I fed him some baby food. While I was feeding Mas I heard a familiar voice saying "You'd make a good mother some day". It was Jamie. " I wish haha" I said. He sat next to me on the bench I didn't even notice that Mason is now asleep I place his dummy in his mouth and put him the pram and rock it. "So what you doing here?" I said. "Need a bitta space what about you?" Jamie said. "My mama needed some time alone away from Mason". "ohright" Jamie said. We then fell into a comfortable silence. Until Mason broke it by sneezing we both laughed awhh he was the cuttest thing ever. 

Jamie walked I and Mason home we talked about our project on our way home. He didn't live that far away from my house. We said our goodbyes and I walked into the house it smelt off chicken baked pasta I was so hungry since I skipped lunch today. I went upstairs to put Mason to bed. I washed my hands and ha dinner I went straight up to my room. Sasha followed me. "If i wasn't dumb I'd think you were dodging me". "Me no now what you want I wanna sleep had  a very stressful day" I said. "why are you acting as if I wasn't on the bus this morning and didn't see what happened if you want I can go tell mam?" Sasha said. "No okay fine then I don't care about it anyways what's done is done I've moved on" I said. Have I actually moved on or am I kidding myself.