Floral Love

day twenty-three

Oh hey Ethan, I'm at the back orga-

Oh my dear, come here.

E-Ethan why are you upset?

I d-don't know.

You were happy yesterday. There must be something wrong, right?

No.

Stop lying and come here.

Look Ethan-

No, I'm fine

Look me in the eye and tell me you're okay

No, don't be upset.

Are you hugging me?

You decide to change your mood now?

What's bothering you? At least tell me.

Noth-

If you say nothing, I will slap you with my sandal.

Well, that's a first.

Let me guess, is it life? A girl? Uni?

Let me simplify it for you. How about... everything?

Alright, that's definitely simple to solve.

I mean, I don't know how I feel anymore.

Are we talking about your feelings for that girl who rejected you?

Yes? No? She hasn't rejected me, she just hasn't talked to me about it.

That's what every person that gets rejected says. 

Glad you caught on.

Hmm. How will your humorous side work with this face?

Life is bothering me. It's tough. I don't feel like living anymore.

I see, I see. Have had many of those moments. 

Well, doesn't everyone?

Not quite. At the age of I don't remember, it's hard to believe it but I was very suicidal. Sometimes when I tell the story it feels as if it wasn't me who faced it but in fact I did.

Uh...

Don't know how to react to that do you?

What happened after though?

I don't know. A stranger emailed me one day, out of the blue, and left compliments every single day. 

Weren't you concerned about stranger danger?

Who cares about stranger danger when they're a teen?

Carter definitely did. 

Well I don't know about Carter but that person, whoever that person is, inspired me to bring joy to other's lives.

So did you get in contact with that person?

No. 

You don't wonder?

It doesn't bother me. I'm thankful for a stranger that stopped me from doing anymore harm to myself and I'm sure that person would want me to spread the message as well.

I guess so.

How long did the message thing go on?

About a month I think. Soon, they turned into paragraphs as to why I should continue to live and all. I found that to be sweet.

If you met that stranger, perhaps, what would you say to them?

I would tell them that they gave me meaning to my life and here I am giving meaning to yours. 

It's called passing on the love.

Huh. Interesting.

Besides, why are you so interested?

So now you're saying I can't question? Rude Rose. Rude. 

Okay, but it's almost time for you to leave.

Fine. Well, see you!

Obviously. It's become a daily thing