The True Story Behind Sexuality

The Beginnings of Confusion

I walked into school as usual, already dreading the time I was wasting when I could've been in bed. Even though I say it and others do, I never get it when people say they sleep when they get home. It just doesn't happen naturally for me. And, wiser ones will say to go to bed earlier, but I'm not missing out on the season finale for a little bit more sleep. I bumped into my locker with my head full of thoughts, and rubbed it when I felt the pain from the accident come upon me. It was the perfect way to start off a Monday. I checked my schedule one last time and treaded down the hall to my homeroom. My best friend in the whole world, Blaire, was already sitting in her seat next to me with a smile on her face.

"So, you know the girl I've had a crush on forever?" She continued without letting me answer. "She actually asked me out today, and now we're dating," she exclaimed, hiding her never-ending smile. "So what about you?"

"Well, as usual, nothing happened. Me and my crush barely talked, and I continued to just stare at him hopelessly. I'm happy for you though," I truly congratulated her. I turned my attention towards the teacher as class began. Truthfully though, me and Blaire just passed notes to each other, and I almost died trying not to laugh at a comment she made. I soon remembered that my crush, Jackson, was in my class as he dropped a pencil in front of me, and bent down so I had a pretty good view. It seemed like he was purposely tempting me everyday, smiling afterwards. I can only dream about if he actually did it to impress me...

The sharp ringing of the bell forced me out of my thoughts and to automatically get my stuff together and head out the door with Blaire. Her girlfriend quickly joined us, and my other best friend, Zach, ran up beside me and put his arm around my neck loosely. As Blaire and Harley had their own conversation, I turned to Zach and tried to start our own.

"So, how are things with Bella?" He initially asked me. I almost forgot that I didn't tell him that I liked a guy, because then he might not see me the same way and break our friendship apart. But it wasn't entirely true that I didn't like Bella. I just was unsure about it, to put it the best way possible.

"So, do you like anyone?" I jokingly asked, and his face immediately drained of color. I just said it to change the subject, but he was hinting that it was a topic he really didn't want to talk about. Maybe we're both hiding things.

I attended the rest of my morning classes, which were boring as usual because I had no one to talk to except the superficial "friends" that only talk to you in class. Relief came across my face as I heard the bell ring and headed towards lunch. I went to my locker to dump off all of the education-related stuff that was in my arms. I shut the locker door and headed towards the cafeteria, catching up with my friends on the way there. Once we got in, we found a table together and sat down with Zach beside me and Blaire across from me.

"So, we're going to go around the table and everyone's going to say their true sexuality. We'll start with me, the bi bitch," she laughed.

"Can you give it a break, Blaire? I know your excited to have a girlfriend and everything, but let's talk about something else," I warned her. Who truly figured out themselves at this time in our life?

"So Kade," Zach directed at me. "Do you have that assignment we did in math? I didn't do it last night." Glad to focus on something else, I tried to get it but remembered all of my stuff was in my locker.

"I'll give it to you after," I reassured him, and we all walked outside as everyone got up. Jackson bumped into me fully, causing me to almost fall before Zach caught me. "Watch where your going, jerk!" He yelled after him and made sure I was upright. "Are you okay?" He asked, concerned. I just nodded my head, wishing I could tell him that was the guy I liked. How hard it was going to be now.

We all walked outside and found a picnic table to hangout at. Zach still had an angry face and was muttering to himself.

"Are you sure that your okay?" I asked him.

"I just believe that he would do that to you, it makes me so mad-" he paused and thought about what he was about to say. "It's nothing, that's all," he finally decided. I felt like it was best to leave him alone about it, so I grabbed his arm and dragged him over to the table.

"Now enjoy some sexual jokes," I played with him, and he finally laughed. Blaire moved over next to me and wanted to talk.

"So you know the guy I like that I only told you about?" I simply nodded. "Well, Blaire caught me flirting with him and told me she needs full devotion to be in the relationship, which I would be fine with except I am guessing that she's hiding something from me," she continued, and let out a sigh. "I'm pretty sure that even though she says she's a lesbian, she is bi because I saw her flirting also with a guy, who happens to be the same one that I like. So I think it's her way to knock out the competition." I brought her closer to me into a tight hug.

"That's messed up. What are you going to do?" I asked.

"I really don't know," she said, sniffling. Right now, life is so crazy and messed up, I can't imagine the future. But when is life not insane?

Authors Note
Hey guys, I just decided to do a story about the messiness of life and crushes without making a perfect love story. And please submit people to play as the characters and I will review them. Love you all <3