and I break the rule

Prologue

hapiness is just a matter of a seconds for me.. or maybe a minute.. probably a day, well a month it can be..

I was happy that day.. the day I thought it was real, Those words he said that kept me from believing that he was real..

But little did I know it was just a dream..Those words thats supposed to be true became a lie..

I never thought that there will be a person like him who just broke me.. I never imagined someone tore me into pieces... I become a fool, yes!but that was before him.. because i choose to be.. but being look like a fool because he made me look like one is a msitake that i need to accept and have to learn from it..

I did everything to forget about him.. Because I wanna forget him.. I wanna erase him.. the past, that should've happen must gone..

I did stop thinking about him.. because I myself have to do that in order for me to be who I am again.. the girl i was used to be before he came.. the girl with a good eye smile whenever she is in a good mood.. a girl with a carefree attitude..

but despite of everything i did.. I was still hurt.. i was still in pain that i still suffer silently.. I dont know how to cope up with this kind of feeling.. i dont know how to get out..because as much as i hated to tell to.myself.. i still loved him..

I just saw him.. with a girl.. they look good together and i can say they were happy.. did she said yes?? the moment he asked her.. did he lie?

i wanted to think that he lied to her too.. like the way he did to me.. because the word jealousy was killing me slowly..

i want to forget him.. i want to forget the past.. i want to forget this feeling.. i want to forget those words...

I wanted to be free from this pain..