I'm disappointed in myself the most ,you told he wasn't for me ,my other friends said he doesnt give a fuck about me , everybody said something negative about our relationship, I get that it wasn't the best but me being me I didn't listen to nobody ,I constantly got hurt by him , there was so many red flags but I didn't pay attention to them ,I can see where he said i always come back to him knowing there's other niggas out there , I was just holding on to something I knew wasn't gonna work in the long run , he's never gonna know the real reason why either
I let myself for some time believe it was gonna last ........lying to myself like a foolish little girl ,he wasn't the problem
......I was..... we could've ended things a long time ago more than once actually, I just wouldn't let it happen tho , I was holding to tight afraid to let him go but along the way I felt like I lost myself to him
I'm not disappointed in nobody
but myself
I'm not crying because of him tho I'm crying because my delusion of who I believed him to be was shattered by the truth of who he is
i know I have to get over him ,for the past months a stone has been sitting on my heart ,I shed a lot of tears over him ,lost a lot of sleep , somehow I just gotta move on cuz if not life is going to be hell if I don't shake loose the grip he has on my heart ,I don't want to keep feeling like this alone in a relationship that was meant for two
even if I believed he was the one...... even if I'd always thought we end up together for a long time........even if he has this choke chain around my heart
I gotta let him go
where did my morals go ? I was in a dream for so long I didn't want to wake up from it
forgetting what reality was like a silly foolish little girl
