Secrets & Desires (ManXMan)

Chapter 2: Unhealed Scars

Alexander's POV:
"Check my schedule and see if I have anything after 9 p.m.," I ask Lyla while checking the reports of our new deal with Nagasaki Enterprise.

"Sir, you have a appointment with Mr. McAdam at 9 p.m., then you have a conference with Alaska group at 9: 30 p.m. and after that you have to meet with Mr. Steve Angelo at 10:15 p.m.", she answers slowly while looking at her iPad. "And after that your schedule is clear up to tomorrow 8 a.m."

"Well, cancel all the appointments I have after 9 p.m. and make new schedule for all them.", I order her.

"S-Sir?", she squeak in horror. "Bu-But we can't afford to change them now. You have a full packed schedule for this m-month and the next two months. It will be im-impossible to rearrange all those now", she stutters while informing me.

"Well, I think you can arrange those. After all this is exactly for what you are here.", I answer her with my no nonsense voice which seems make many people shut their mouth and I really am glad to see it works for her too.

Clearly frightens by my tone of voice, she flees from my room.

Jesus, this girl is just too much. She always takes too much time in everything she do. Can't wait till Mathew comes back soon from whatever hell he had gone for last three weeks with his family. Well, I know I shouldn't be mad at him for Lyla's clumsiness but Mathew is always the person who arrange my schedule although he and Lyla are both my personal secretaries.

I notice the time showing in my laptop and surprise to see it is already 7:02 p.m.

Two hours to go.

No...

I should have said no to him. I should not have let him make me agree. Suddenly I feel terrified of what I am going to face today.

You are sick.

Suddenly I hear her voice in my head so clearly like she is telling me now.

You are as much twisted as I am.

No, I am not.

Yes, you are.

No

You can't live without me.

I cover my ears to shut her out but I can still hear her voice.

You will always come back to me, no matter how you try to resist. You're nothing without me.

SHUT UP!

"Sir, are you alright?"

Suddenly Lyla's voice brings me back to the present.

I remove my hands from my ears and look at her to find her looking at me in a strange way.

"Yes, I am," I try to answer her while trying to steady my wild heart beat. Shit! I was about to have one of those panic attacks I haven't had for last five years. I used to have those frequently eight years ago.

"Are you sure? You are sweating too much.", she asks me in a anxious voice.

"Yes. What the hell you want?" I snap.